im so over being alive, having feelings and being affected by others words, im over eating and drinking......its so fucking over rated..........i cant take it emotionally when someone close to me (unintentionally) makes me feel horrible for eating something that was his. i cant fucking take it, so im just not going to eat anything and protect myself from hearing anything about food.
i may have fractured my wrist.....its very swollen, the bone is popped out, its bruised and red around the area.....and very sore.....it hurts......but i keep smashing it on every hard surface in my house.......my new form of self harm. i want it to hurt, i want to feel the pain of crushing my wrist.... its the only thing that can make me feel better as of lately, sad....i know.
and my 1 year wedding anniversary coming up on October 11. I need to get my head straight.......fuck, fuck, fuck
take care everyone xoxoxoxo
i may have fractured my wrist.....its very swollen, the bone is popped out, its bruised and red around the area.....and very sore.....it hurts......but i keep smashing it on every hard surface in my house.......my new form of self harm. i want it to hurt, i want to feel the pain of crushing my wrist.... its the only thing that can make me feel better as of lately, sad....i know.
and my 1 year wedding anniversary coming up on October 11. I need to get my head straight.......fuck, fuck, fuck
take care everyone xoxoxoxo
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rem:
at least your putting your feelings out there and getting it out of yourself. dealing with an eating disorder is fucking unbearable. all you can do is know you are loved and cared about and just know you have to take care of you! if you ever want to talk about it feel free to message me.. and i mean that! you're beautiful. xoxo
opia:
Stay safe boo