Sometimes I wonder who I really am. There are so many sides to me, I don't know which one is real. It depends who I'm with. I can be funny and sarcastic, to most people I meet. Sometimes I'm the sweet little innocent girl with morals, sometimes the devil comes out. Sometimes I cry myself to sleep, other times I am the happiest girl in the world. Sometimes I act like all I care about is me, other times I put everyone else forward. I could be a Sex In The City girl, or a school librarian.
Why can't I put all of these together and just BE ME? Why do I feel the need to hide certain aspects of my personality. I don't mean to, it just happens. Why do I feel the need to pretend? Who the hell am I trying to impress?
Why can't I put all of these together and just BE ME? Why do I feel the need to hide certain aspects of my personality. I don't mean to, it just happens. Why do I feel the need to pretend? Who the hell am I trying to impress?
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I work in IT by day and drum in a band at night. I have to be two different people but at the same time retain the sense of who I am. Sure I can have a laugh etc at work but you have to know when to pull on the reins, you can't take things as far. Sometimes you adapt to a situation consciously like that, sometimes you do it without thinking and then ask yourself "why did I just act like that?". The fact you recognise that probably means you won't do it next time.
I wouldn't worry too much.
thanks for accepting...yet another inch closer to my faith in humanity being restored.
regarding your last journal entry, i am only going to repeat whats been said before..
we all feel like that sometimes, it's just we are all very clever at hiding it, which to the onlooker makes them feel they are the only one feeling it. (did that make sense?)
i hope you are feeling better now anyway.
take care and hopefully speak soon
see ya