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i woke up wanting to cry. i still want to cry. im moving to new york in less than 3 months. i am making arrangements everyday. i will be in new york soon, and i feel awful about everything. the man i want to be with lives in new york. we haven't spoken in a week. i know how short a week is, but it feels like forever when you need support.

it makes me feel like he is starting to realize that im moving there, and it is scaring him. he is coming to terms with the fact that when i my plane lands at JFK, he wont be single anymore.

more importantly, my sister and i haven't resolved anything regarding my move. my parents told me they wont take place in helping me move until the fire between us sisters has settled.

i have plans to make and big decisions. im fucking moving across the country. i have to deal with all this emotional bullshit. i have a timeline and ive been saving all this money. is all my energy going to waste?

right now, in all my post-nap depression, it feels like im moving to a city sisterless, and boyless.

in the mean time i cant stop listening to Why?. probably isnt helping.

im also visiting my old home town probably for the last time before i move and start my own life. i have to say goodbye. honestly goodbye.

the worst part, is that i didnt bother to make any friends when i moved here, because i knew it was temporary. but i have absolutely no one here.

these pictures were meant for my man, but i dont feel like sending them anymore.





somebody tell me some good news!