About a month ago, I was hanging with some friends and I met this guy. You know how I am. Horny almost everydaty and pretty much straightforward. So I told him to go to my house and get things going... I obviousy took a condom and put it on him and we started having sex. By the time he was done, he sticked out his dick and jerked til he came in my belly. To my surprise... There was no condom. Iasked him where the condom was and he said that he wasn't feeling nothing with the condom on so he felt the need to take it off. He didn't even think of telling me or asking me or being fucking comunicative about it with me.
Two weeks ago I started feeling super super premenstrual. Like I normally feel, but kind of more intense. My boobs were more sensitive than ever. I had regular short cramps and my vaginal discharge was really weird. But as that tend to happen to me a couple of days prior to period, I was unbothered.
Last week I was supposed to be already on my period. Thats when I started thinking that maybe I was pregnant. But I tried to stay calm and focus on the idea that I had a delay, because if you get too stressed out, periods tend to delay even more.
Today, one week after, I decided that i wanted to talk to my mom about it and ask her for advice. She told me that maybe I was having a big delay on my period but that it was necessary for me to do a pregnancy test to clear out any doubts. Turns out I am pregnant. I'm calling tomorrow my doctor to schedule an abortion. I've always been really sure that I don't want kids. Even less right now. And even in a future if I want them, I'm most probably adopting. Pregnancies are beautiful and so, but they scare the fuck out of me.
Right now on one hand I'm feeling a bit shocked still, but pretty much relaxed. I just want to abort, get well (in health terms) and keep going with my life and plans. And on the other hand I'm also feeling so fucking disappointed and angry. I messaged this guy about this and he left me on read. And I'm fucking responsible for his lack of brain cells, I'm going through what he deserves to go through, and he's fucking laughing at me. Such a dickhead. I'm also feeling a bit scared about the abortion process. As I'm 1 month and 1 week pregnant only, I think they're probably giving me the aborting pill instead of going through the surgical abortion wich scares me even more. I'm trying not to think about it as this proces is inevitable, a lot of girls had gone through it and it takes just a couple of days to get back to normal.
I'll keep you posted after the abortion process. π€
If you're ever going through this, find support in your close ones, friends, family, couple... I'm definately not alone and feel so much love and support right now. That's what's helping me the most right now.
@missy @lemon @penny
