villa

These past few months have been hard for me.. I fell for someone who I thought was different than any guy I ever had in my life and in the end he wasn't. I know all men aren't all the same.. B/c I hung out with an amazing guy a few nights ago.. He's a gentleman and just has respect for women.. My ex doesn't have respect for women or himself.. At least that's what I think.. My ex has tore me down and I have cried myself to sleep at night over him hoping that in the end everything would be the way I want it to be with him.. Its taking time and I'm slowly realizing that I don't need or want him anymore.. He's nothing I deserve a real man not a child. I ask for honesty and trust in relationships and he broke both of those even through he always said he wouldn't.You can't live two life's. Karma's a bitch and it all catches up to you in the end.. No one can fix my issues for me.. I can only keep doing my best to make myself happy.. Hang out with real friends. Have fun with the ones I now that truly care about me. Live my life to the fullest.. Know I don't need a man to be happy.. But I would like a real man in my life.. But I am not looking.. B/c right now I don't belive in love anymore.. After spending years getting my heart stomped on by people I thought loved me I've lost all hope.. . I want my stuff back from him and then i want no more thoughts of him. I will always hold a spot in my heart for him b/c I had a great time with him in the begining and he did some great things for me. But in the end I guess it was all fake.. I know now that he will never grow up and will never change.. The truth is he wants a slave he wants someone to take care of him and do everything for him and he wants to be a slut as well.. Well you can't live your life walking all over people.. No one can fix my heart for me only I can do that.. I have amazing friends and family in my life who are always there for me when I need them to be.. I told him once that now matter what happened I'd always be there b/c that's the type of person I am and he said he would be there for me.. Well your not.. You were there for me after my car accident and when I lost my grandma and tht meant a lot to me.. But then poof your gone.. Have a great life..