By Fate Be Driven
2011 has been an interesting year for me.
-New place
-New friends
-New enemies (not just zombies)
-Almost died twice
-and the list goes on
I was friends with this girl for about 6 months, lets call her "Ms. X" Ms. X was a libertine in the most extreme sense, she was a self proclaim nympho, she was engaged to a guy who shared the name as me, yes he was called Videodrome strange huh? Well she also believed herself to very very smart, that she knew everything; math, history, science, the human mind - she was smart but also a living and breathing contradiction. You know the saying "I know you are but what I am" yeah it could be said about her.
Our friendship was good for a while but she was always trying to seduce me since she was in an open relationship but I just didn't feel right do something with someone's else wife to be. I gave into temptation a few times, (it worked in her favor that she was very pretty) and her man knew and he was totally cool with it, I even met the guy a few times.
After a while she started peaking and prying into my personal life and history, she wanted to know everything about me, I've come to realize now people to her are puzzles and she likes to figure them out and not giving a fuck about their feelings and then moving onto the next puzzle. She kept pushing, wanting to know everyone about me, I told her a lot but not everything. The ties starting to bind more and more due to the sexual tenison, her contradiction and just my beliefs. Did I mention she had a temper too? The moment she didnt get her away she turned into this monster that's vocab including the words "Fuck you cocksucker"
Eventually one day she kept forcing to go somewhere I didn't want to go, a stupid hipster wannabe club but in the same sentence she say its okay you don't have to go. She started to go off on a rant calling me stupid,
Here is our text message
Me: I don't want to go to necto, it's always packed with people I don't care for
Ms. X: Stop being a bitch, if you don't wanna go, then don't go even though I think you should, getting out there, but your reason is very stupid.
Me: Whatever
Then she called up and said I was a little bitch, a hypocrite and always judging people and that I deserved to be all alone and that I have no friends. I nearly lost it but I kept cool and I replied "I have plenty of friends and you are not one of them" and hung up, she left about 5 voicemails that basically just said fuck you you're ugly, stupid and a judgmental racist.
Can you see the bat crazy in her eyes?
I laughed, I don't judge people because I could care less, if you're not pissing me I don't give a fuck and skin color really? I know there are the funny stereotypes of each race but I have never gone around saying "Fuck that spick, fuck that nigger, fuck you because you're different"
I'm more pissed off than anything but I've moved on, she was a poison in my life, an anchor someone I don't want or need, ever since shes been gone I've been back in the gym and on my meds and I feel 100% better and more focused, I'm not perfect but then again perfect is overrated.
Speaking of perfect
These some of my faults I have noticed about myself
- I have a tendency to say the most un-PC thing at the worst time. I once told a cancer patient that they shouldnt watch a certain movie because it was so bad, it causes cancer. Not at all with malice, just not thinking ahead
- I can be very empathic to others feelings at time, it's not that I don't care, sometimes I feel like I should let that person have there space during a troubling time, when in fact they need me
- I've been told I can be self-centered that I usually put my own concerns before others and that I do things only for myself
- My worst trait (I believe) I push things too far, almost to the point of being obsessive, for example if I really like someone or am focus on something I go after it and sometimes if it's not meant to be I keep pushing and it can be scary. I think it's that im very passionate and have an earning desire to make someone happy and special that it backfires.
It's like hugging someone to tight that you begin to choke them. I never mean to choke but I sometimes do, so from the bottom of my heart I'm sorry to anyone I've ever choked. It's flattery not serial killer intentions. I'm working on it. Mama always said I have a lot of love to give and that I would make a lucky lady very happy one day, I thought I did a few years ago until she turned out to be a cheating junkie.
I guess gotta follow the Morgan Freeman style of picking up ladies
2011 has been an interesting year for me.
-New place
-New friends
-New enemies (not just zombies)
-Almost died twice
-and the list goes on
I was friends with this girl for about 6 months, lets call her "Ms. X" Ms. X was a libertine in the most extreme sense, she was a self proclaim nympho, she was engaged to a guy who shared the name as me, yes he was called Videodrome strange huh? Well she also believed herself to very very smart, that she knew everything; math, history, science, the human mind - she was smart but also a living and breathing contradiction. You know the saying "I know you are but what I am" yeah it could be said about her.
Our friendship was good for a while but she was always trying to seduce me since she was in an open relationship but I just didn't feel right do something with someone's else wife to be. I gave into temptation a few times, (it worked in her favor that she was very pretty) and her man knew and he was totally cool with it, I even met the guy a few times.
After a while she started peaking and prying into my personal life and history, she wanted to know everything about me, I've come to realize now people to her are puzzles and she likes to figure them out and not giving a fuck about their feelings and then moving onto the next puzzle. She kept pushing, wanting to know everyone about me, I told her a lot but not everything. The ties starting to bind more and more due to the sexual tenison, her contradiction and just my beliefs. Did I mention she had a temper too? The moment she didnt get her away she turned into this monster that's vocab including the words "Fuck you cocksucker"
Eventually one day she kept forcing to go somewhere I didn't want to go, a stupid hipster wannabe club but in the same sentence she say its okay you don't have to go. She started to go off on a rant calling me stupid,
Here is our text message
Me: I don't want to go to necto, it's always packed with people I don't care for
Ms. X: Stop being a bitch, if you don't wanna go, then don't go even though I think you should, getting out there, but your reason is very stupid.
Me: Whatever
Then she called up and said I was a little bitch, a hypocrite and always judging people and that I deserved to be all alone and that I have no friends. I nearly lost it but I kept cool and I replied "I have plenty of friends and you are not one of them" and hung up, she left about 5 voicemails that basically just said fuck you you're ugly, stupid and a judgmental racist.
Can you see the bat crazy in her eyes?
I laughed, I don't judge people because I could care less, if you're not pissing me I don't give a fuck and skin color really? I know there are the funny stereotypes of each race but I have never gone around saying "Fuck that spick, fuck that nigger, fuck you because you're different"
I'm more pissed off than anything but I've moved on, she was a poison in my life, an anchor someone I don't want or need, ever since shes been gone I've been back in the gym and on my meds and I feel 100% better and more focused, I'm not perfect but then again perfect is overrated.
Speaking of perfect
These some of my faults I have noticed about myself
- I have a tendency to say the most un-PC thing at the worst time. I once told a cancer patient that they shouldnt watch a certain movie because it was so bad, it causes cancer. Not at all with malice, just not thinking ahead
- I can be very empathic to others feelings at time, it's not that I don't care, sometimes I feel like I should let that person have there space during a troubling time, when in fact they need me
- I've been told I can be self-centered that I usually put my own concerns before others and that I do things only for myself
- My worst trait (I believe) I push things too far, almost to the point of being obsessive, for example if I really like someone or am focus on something I go after it and sometimes if it's not meant to be I keep pushing and it can be scary. I think it's that im very passionate and have an earning desire to make someone happy and special that it backfires.
It's like hugging someone to tight that you begin to choke them. I never mean to choke but I sometimes do, so from the bottom of my heart I'm sorry to anyone I've ever choked. It's flattery not serial killer intentions. I'm working on it. Mama always said I have a lot of love to give and that I would make a lucky lady very happy one day, I thought I did a few years ago until she turned out to be a cheating junkie.
I guess gotta follow the Morgan Freeman style of picking up ladies
scandal_:
Why didn't i know you had a psycho booty call? I thought we was tight yo!