Sometimes I wonder why I even bother, I just got from the bar so Im a little intoxicated and emotional. Flashback-
In 2003 I met one of the most fun, sweet, relatable and utterly gorgeous women I have ever met. Her name is Danielle.
We were great friends throughout high school and have stayed in touch over the years. Today was her birthday so we all went to a country dance club/bar (they had 25 cent beers) and everybody was having a great time. No one bought her any gifts but I did and she was so thrilled and humbled that I went out of my way for her. The night was full...for a while.
Towards the end of the night, a couple of people were asking for if she was seeing someone, I was hoping she would say no because I wanted to ask out on a date. a 7 year crush and I asked her once 3 years ago so I thought I'll be honest and if shes interested. We always get along, shes a perfect counterpart to my silliness, sarcastic sense of humor and shes also a great equivalent for my passionate, serious, quiet part of me too.
Well turns out shes been seeing some guy for a while now. Sucks! but whatever shes a pretty girl shes always had a b/f but it turns out this guy is currently in jail! JAIL! Arrest and given a DUI and she is taking care of his stuff while hes inside. JAIL, isnt that a place for losers? So whatever I was torn inside but forced smiles on the surface. Well Danielle left her party as she had work and I was left with a few "friends" from high school too. They told me that throughout all these years I have had my heart on my sleeve and wrists for her they have all been with her. All the males there (3) and not me and they never really liked her just want her for sex. I left shortly after walking home crying and angry. I dont understand how all and yes I mean, all my friends are either married or in serious relationships and Im always just the throw away. This reminds me of the song "Something I Can Never Have"
So I dont want to tell her how I feel since shes "dating" someone that would be rude and trespassing certain boundaries but 7 years of a crush. She was my high school crush, the one I never dated so is it time to just let it go, just say fuck it she doesnt like you like that or what?
All I want is the chance, just one chance to make her happy and if I fail or ruin that chance then at least I can say I was given an opporunity to make something with her.
Here is a picture of her and her current boyfriend.
Does he have something im lacking in the looks department?
I cant stand feeling so alone in a crowded room.
Fuck it, bed.
In 2003 I met one of the most fun, sweet, relatable and utterly gorgeous women I have ever met. Her name is Danielle.
We were great friends throughout high school and have stayed in touch over the years. Today was her birthday so we all went to a country dance club/bar (they had 25 cent beers) and everybody was having a great time. No one bought her any gifts but I did and she was so thrilled and humbled that I went out of my way for her. The night was full...for a while.
Towards the end of the night, a couple of people were asking for if she was seeing someone, I was hoping she would say no because I wanted to ask out on a date. a 7 year crush and I asked her once 3 years ago so I thought I'll be honest and if shes interested. We always get along, shes a perfect counterpart to my silliness, sarcastic sense of humor and shes also a great equivalent for my passionate, serious, quiet part of me too.
Well turns out shes been seeing some guy for a while now. Sucks! but whatever shes a pretty girl shes always had a b/f but it turns out this guy is currently in jail! JAIL! Arrest and given a DUI and she is taking care of his stuff while hes inside. JAIL, isnt that a place for losers? So whatever I was torn inside but forced smiles on the surface. Well Danielle left her party as she had work and I was left with a few "friends" from high school too. They told me that throughout all these years I have had my heart on my sleeve and wrists for her they have all been with her. All the males there (3) and not me and they never really liked her just want her for sex. I left shortly after walking home crying and angry. I dont understand how all and yes I mean, all my friends are either married or in serious relationships and Im always just the throw away. This reminds me of the song "Something I Can Never Have"
So I dont want to tell her how I feel since shes "dating" someone that would be rude and trespassing certain boundaries but 7 years of a crush. She was my high school crush, the one I never dated so is it time to just let it go, just say fuck it she doesnt like you like that or what?
All I want is the chance, just one chance to make her happy and if I fail or ruin that chance then at least I can say I was given an opporunity to make something with her.
Here is a picture of her and her current boyfriend.
Does he have something im lacking in the looks department?
I cant stand feeling so alone in a crowded room.
Fuck it, bed.
scandal_:
just because the person you want doesn't happen to want you back at the moment....says nothing about your personal value. Don't let it hurt you in that way <3 Maybe she isn't ready for a nice, stable person. It sure took me a while. Wouldn't you rather be the last person someone is with than the first, or middle?
amarena:
***Hugs...and an ass slap***