victoriasponge

so i went out for a few drinkies last night, it was all very civilised. nothing to report. so when jen and i got home we just sat and did not very much really. we cooked dinner together (its like we are amarried couple but without all the complicated stuff!!!) and then we sat and channel hopped for about 2 hours. rock and roll!!!!!

kathryn got in late and i just wanted to check on her cos i felt like something was wrong... its a good thing i did. she is feeling a bit emotional at the moment (and she has a wisdom tooth issue) so i gave her a hug which i think helped. but then in the early hours of this morning it sounded like her and her man were having a tiff about something. i havent spoken to her yet but i know what it is. basically she is in the early stages of a new relationship and i think she is putting way to much expectation and pressure on it. ive told her before not to plan or demand anything just relax and see what happens. if you expect too much then its never gonna live up to your expectations and then you will be disappointed. im naturally a really positive person so its easy for me to say stuff like that. but its true, more relaxed you are the better it will be. but she is so highly strung about stuff at the mo i know that she wont appreciate what im saying. he is a really nice guy and i think them 2 are really suited i just hope her paranoia doesnt spoil it. but only she can figure it out. but me and jen are there for her whatever happens.

im still really excited about this weekend. its a bit full on but its gonna be amazing. jen wants all of us. (her, her man neil, k and her man simon) to all go bowling on friday night. woo hoo! my 2 favourite things going bowling and playing goosberry!!!! note the sarcasim.

i have said that i would prefer not to go and i really would like to go see my nanny. but we will see.

and as for trying to arrange everyone meeting in the same place at the same time on saturday for jens birthday, its like a military operation! so in the end today i sent out an email saying "where and when and any probs call me" type email to everyone. ive had a few interesting repsonses in picture form from our friend rich. 1 of which was borat?!?!?!?! who knows?!

i miss my sister loads at the moment. there is loads going on in my life both really good and not so good. and normally my life is a little bit quiet. it would be good just to sit with her and have a goss about stuff. but its not so easy when she is in singapore! she just has this really comforting aura about her. it doesnt matter how stressed or upset i am she can just look at me or say something funny (normally quoting 1 of our fave films or some in joke) and eveything in the world is right again. i just need her advice. ive written her a massive email talking to her about stuff so hopefully any day now i will get a reply. i know its selfish of me to miss her especially cos she is having an experiance of a lifetime but she just knew when i needed her. actually saying that i got an email from her a few weeks ago and all it said was "wuv u". its something we do. so i knew she knew i had stuff going on and she just wanted to let me know that she did. must be some freaky psychic sister thing.

its probably why i enjoy living with the girls so much cos they are sisters. and i spend lots of time with my sister in law and her sister. the girls refer to me as an adopted smith (their surname) and bex calls me her sister anyway which is nice for me.

now i sound wierd.

so this job i didnt get well ive got to go and get some "experiance in the right field" apparently. so from today i am making it my mission to cash in all the favours i have with the sales team! i have spoken to some of them about doingsome work, project work, general slave type thing for them. a few are quite keen. im gonna have to plan it though cos at this rate im off to basingstoke, leicester, dublin and london! i doubt i can get that much time out of the office but its worth a try!!!!! all for the sake of a job i really want!!!!! who would have thought that i once wanted to be a nurse, librarian, art therapy teacher........ a girl can dream. the exciting career path that i have led, or not! ive picked up the keys skills that i need for life through my vast working history. i can design a store, change a light fitting, pull a pint, and i know all about contact lenses......... everything you could ever wish to know!!!!!!!!!!!

but im actually in the best mood ever. i cant really explain now, but its all soooooo good!

my ramblings are over for another day. x