victoriasponge

i finally recovered on saturday after work. i didnt quite make it to see my niece and nephew, which was a shame but it was my own stupid fault. i didnt really want to breathe alcohol fumes all over them... not nice! so in the end i ventured into portsmouth with jen, not too sure why cos i hate portsmouth but she wanted to go. the only thing i bought was a leopard print bangle to add to my vast collection of leopard print items, jen says im addicted. i beg to differ! oh yeah i i bought some work clothes... ive got a couple of conference things coming up and i need to look slightly smarter than i do normally. really dull, but for anyone thats interested i bought a skirt (fitted knee length and black. a shirt, a black cardigan a gold cardigan and a dress thing which im not too sure about cos i think it would look better over jeans than for work). not that i havent got enough clothes already! oooh! and a pair of neon pink earrings to match my new killer heals which i cant walk in. but now i am totally poor!!!!!

i had a major flashback from friday night though... some welsh dude was talking to jen. so i must have thought it was funny to do my utah saints something good impression..... "youve got the freshest moves ive ever seen!" followed by the WHOLE running man dance.... i am just too cool for words, not! apparently it was hilarious! im so pleased that i was on top form and absolutely humiliated myself in public!

sunday was cool, i dragged my crazy self off to southampton. i had to do some birthday shopping, its jen, kathryn and my big bros birthday all in the space of about 3 weeks!!!! very expensive. jen spent the day with her new fella. so i took a few hours out and spend it sat in the park eating ice cream with kathryn and her mum. mmmnnnn...............sugar!!!!!!

but then last night i had to escape to my room. kathryns ex came over cos they needed to talk. personally i think he is a utter twat (excuse my language) he is like a selfish little boy. so they were sat in the living room so i had to amuse myself. which is fine i enjoy my own company. so i decided to go through my cd collection and listen to stuff that i hadnt heard in ages. it was cool to reminisce a bit. i just chilled out which was really needed as im all a bit hectic at the moment! and i was kept company by some very enjoyable sweet text messages. which made me smile more than i can last remember.

do you ever get it when you realise that you have off loaded some paranoia onto someone without realising and you just hope they dont notice?

i didnt sleep well last night though. we had really bad thunder and lightning! i have massive issues with thunder and lightning (that and sweetcorn). i was stuck outside in a storm when i was about 3 and it totally freaked me out. mum and dad have tried to help me with it, i even had an ex boyf who took on the challenge. but they all failed. it woke me up and i just felt sick with it, ii couldnt even get out of bed to close my window and then i couldnt get back to sleep..... aaragh!!!!

anyway thats enough of my waffle for now...... im supposed to be working which is why im in the office at stupid o clock on a monday morning and seriosuly how much can i talk!

oh and on 1 final note..... someone has been ticking all my boxes and possibly even boxes that i didnt know existed. its a really good feeling and it gives me the worlds biggest smile!!!



the reason i mention it was to say firstly i didnt think it was possible (long story, will probably mention it someday) and secondly to say thank you



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