and so im sitting at home again playing shinobi
its a good game, obove average in all respects, exvept i feel like im thirteen again because my parents are arguing, more like my ancestors, or the remains of my family after my dad decided to live a life of a millionare
alone
what happened was that my grandmother received a packadge from her friend in Xarkov ukraine. my mom totally flipped out, because for two years now, she should have sent a packadge of stuff back to this lady because the lady helped to send alot of our private property over from ukraine, mostly my moms silverware and china, useless pretty shit
i called my mother a "svoloch" because she made my grandmother cry today. it really sucks to have members of your own family be soo consumed by their own fears and their greed
jeebus, i never want to marry anyone like my mom, i hate people who make "motherhood" and an "estate" their sole purpose in life, but i guess thats just life, and i didnt get to choose which evils or ills both of my parents were to have during their lives
whats worse is that she is unapproachable, she freaks out completely, and yet makes it seem like its your fault that she is making horrible decidions in her life
well, i guess thats why im writing the book that i am, on case studies of irrational fear and anxiety, like those that possess my sister and my mom, one from years of abuse, the other from a twisted and racist traditional system, but also her own doing
life IS very unfair
but then again, a fair is where people give out prices for livestock
all i can do, and urge others of like mind and spirit, is to stay away from greed, avarice or sadism, and be only responcible for their own actions
and be careful in who they choose to marry
i hate people who think they are faultless
and then dont allow anyone to tell them that they are doing some very bad things
its a good game, obove average in all respects, exvept i feel like im thirteen again because my parents are arguing, more like my ancestors, or the remains of my family after my dad decided to live a life of a millionare
alone
what happened was that my grandmother received a packadge from her friend in Xarkov ukraine. my mom totally flipped out, because for two years now, she should have sent a packadge of stuff back to this lady because the lady helped to send alot of our private property over from ukraine, mostly my moms silverware and china, useless pretty shit
i called my mother a "svoloch" because she made my grandmother cry today. it really sucks to have members of your own family be soo consumed by their own fears and their greed
jeebus, i never want to marry anyone like my mom, i hate people who make "motherhood" and an "estate" their sole purpose in life, but i guess thats just life, and i didnt get to choose which evils or ills both of my parents were to have during their lives
whats worse is that she is unapproachable, she freaks out completely, and yet makes it seem like its your fault that she is making horrible decidions in her life
well, i guess thats why im writing the book that i am, on case studies of irrational fear and anxiety, like those that possess my sister and my mom, one from years of abuse, the other from a twisted and racist traditional system, but also her own doing
life IS very unfair
but then again, a fair is where people give out prices for livestock
all i can do, and urge others of like mind and spirit, is to stay away from greed, avarice or sadism, and be only responcible for their own actions
and be careful in who they choose to marry
i hate people who think they are faultless
and then dont allow anyone to tell them that they are doing some very bad things
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Youve got some pretty amazing stuff going on yourself, Im impressed!
Hmm, what did you mean by how "finished" my work looks?
Sorry, I just do art strictly as a hobbie, so Im not down with the lingo...
Yeah Im not a fan of that vector tracing crap either but I actually have another method then simply tracing. Tracing with Illustrator takes forever for some people it takes almost 8 hours I find it much more time efficient to use a photo as a reference, scan the pencil drawing and convert it into a EPS with streamline. Problem is you cant create layers that way, that's why all my vectors are plain black and white lines because a lot of the objects are open ended colouring one thing will effect something else.
Im not entirely sure what the attraction to the Japanese culture is for artists, for me I find that kanji characters are much more of an art form then English text because were constantly exposed to it as advertising Im sure its probably the exact opposite in Japan.
I havent seen the Last Samurai yet once I start getting paychecks from my job and pay back some of my debts it will be the first thing I do.
Polymodeling does sound cool I dont know how to use Max, Maya or Lightwave though. I did learn Raydream at the crappy school I went to. The program was obsolete and discontinued before I even finished the final project, I think they may even be still teaching it and I took that coarse 4 years ago.
Wow I really like the piece inspired by Gia in your pics folder.
That does really suck if anyone made my Baba cry, crap would I be pissed. I agree some people take their greed for money way to far. I was raised to believe that success is measured by the thickness of your wallet. Now I cant help but feel like a disappointment to my parents, but I would never let money control my life Id rather just slide by doing something that I love then have things I dont need doing something I hate.