vicedriver

the end of another year
which always brings contemplation
it shouldn't really
it is just a relatively arbitrary marking of time
which is in itself arbitrary
but it's no accident when the holidays are
right after the solstice
coming out of the dark
a time for renewal
in many cultures
and so we change socially
recommit
repromise
only usually to renig
and once you are comforable with all that
you can cut it out and just try and plow through

still
it can't be helped really
and when one contemplates too much already
it can be a bit of an overload

simplify simplify simplify
will someone just come over
and get all the crap out my condo that i don't want anymore?
i need to get rid of so much
sometimes sentimentality gets in the way
mostly the overwhelming nature of sorting through roughly 1500 cubic feet of accumulated belongings and garbage
how did it all pile up??
le sigh

sometimes i feel like sisyphus
but that's life
cursed and beautiful
amazing and terrifying
off and on

keep it on