My life is a mess. My boyfriend broke up with me, because I'm nuts. I also had my first psychiatrist appointment today, and he was concerned enough to rearrange his schedule so that I can come back tomorrow. I'm super anxious about the whole thing. I'm squandering my life and pushing people away, I really just can't take it anymore. I'm also consider archiving. I'm not so sure about a lot of things in my life anymore, SG included. xoxo
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ainur:
I don't know you at all, but I randomly came across your current blog post, which led me to this post, and I want to comment. I haven't read any of the other comments (kind of felt too personal) so I hope this hasn't been said 107 other times. Just remember that YOU are what's most important. Always, constantly and forever. How you feel and think about YOU is all that matters. If you want to archive, do it. You wouldn't be any less cool for doing so. How the ex feels about you really doesn't matter WHEN you find your own inner joy. Whatever brings the calm and happy, be it the smallest five second blip of a smile kind of happiness, or hours of perfect peaceful bliss, wrap you arms around it and hold it for YOURSELF. Doesn't matter what it does for anybody else. Just you. And no, it's not selfish. It's life. It's YOUR life. And you deserve to be happy and healthy just as much as the next person. 
_swizzle_:
No, you are not nuts. You're just like rest of us. We're all crazy, in a crazy world. Always look out for number 1, and that's you. No-one can make you happy except you, and it seems like he didn't deserve you. Come see me in Aus. and i'll treat you right.