Thursday Jan 20, 2011

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Um.

My life is insanity.

I haven't updated and with good reasons. Everything that has happened over the last 2 weeks has been incredible. Some are small things; others are literally life altering for me.

First off, my chest piece is complete and I have started an arm sleeve, apparently. All courtesy of the ever incredible Mr. SeanHill:





Secondly, I shot a set with Milloux last week and I REALLY REALLY am digging the theme involving it. It's top secret until Milloux is able to get it all ready to submit. I had such a great time with her, I'm really looking forward to not only shooting again ASAP but hanging out in general with that woman! Trust me when I say, she is SOO much sexier in person.

I also got to have a lunch playdate with Ackley this week. I think I may be in love with her. It was nice to have someone to talk to who I feel really gets me, especially right now in my life. She and I are so similar, I'm going to have to check to see if we're related!!! We got to check out the skate park in Venice. Nice relaxed day:



In addition, I got to shoot with the awesome Lou Noble:











So the big things going on in my life:

I'm about to trade suburbia for the city life full-time: I requested a transfer back to the LA Market, official March 1. Commuting back and forth shall be no more!!!

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No more quiet neighborhoods in a month:











And the biggest news of all...

I have decided, after keeping the desire a secret for over a year now, to go back to school. I have no college under my belt whatsoever, so I need to knock general ed out of the way first. Once that is complete, I will most likely be focusing on English Literature with an emphasis in creative writing and I may also try and minor in journalism, though I do not want to push myself. Since I cannot get the student aid I need until my 24th birthday, which is May 28, I will be attending all online courses starting June 15. If I could get enough funding to quit my management position and be able to live off funding alone, I would, but its not going to happen and I am ok with that. I am beyond nervous, scared and excited all rolled into one. I said I wanted 2011 to be the year of me and that's what I'm truly focusing on: bettering myself as an individual and striving for the goals I wish to achieve smile


Anytime I think I want to turn back and say forget it, I listen to this song and remember the lyrics. It applies to not just heartbreak, but every aspect of my life:




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Its been 2 months and 10 days since we lost Lauren and I am finally ok with speaking freely about it. I know alot of you were wondering the circumstances surrounding the situation and at the time, I didn't want to share. The long and short of it is: Lauren was crossing Sunset Blvd, November 10, at approx 11:50 pm with our friend Chelsea in tow. She was in the crosswalk, she had the right of way, and a man in a Bentley went through the red light and hit Lauren. She died immediately; the driver did not stop. The individual who killed her turned himself in the next afternoon and sadly, has been out on bail since that weekend.

His arraignment is on the 27 of next week in Los Angeles, the day before my surgery. Lauren's mother and father and her friends from Virginia, San Francisco and Hawaii are going to be here starting this weekend for it. I never met Lauren's parents or her friend from Hawaii before her service the week after she died and it was really bittersweet to meet them under such circumstances. I'm going to be glad to see them this weekend and go to dinner and get to know them better and share stories. Perhaps, in a weird, twisted way, something decent can come out of this fucked up tragedy that is our living nightmare. I'm looking forward to seeing them and I just wanted to say to everyone who has shown their support: Thank you so, so, so much. You have no idea what it means to me.




Before I go, I leave you with this image my friend Adam painted for a class of his:



Crazy right?! I love it!!!

I'm not sure if I can post again before the surgery but I will try!! I hope everyone has an excellent week.

All my love,

V

VIEW 24 of 24 COMMENTS
kraven:
How did the surgery go? Did you reschedule? I miss ya to lady!
delia:
I'd be perfectly okay with it if you wanted to kidnap me...just sayin'... <3

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