I don't think I am a typical macho guy. I know what the color fusha looks like. I still have my first teddy bear, YouTube clips from agt make me tear up, and i am fully aware of my emotions. Plus I'm a hopeless romantic.
One thing that is typical is the fact I cannot admit when I am in physical pain. Emotional pain I'll talk about all day long. In my 20's I was a bouncer and at some point I fractured my neck according to my Dr. For a long time I had issues with my neck but I just ignored it.
Now my hand is always numb and I can't look up at the ceiling, the sky, or the stars. June 10th I went into see a neurosurgeon and he said we have to have surgery asap. There is a disc closing around a nerve and I could end up with permanent damage. July 2nd I will have a titanium plate put in my throat. And a lot of the bone spurts removed and other fun stuff. The pain I ignored because I'm tough as shit now has me scared shitless.
