Well trying to pick this was pretty much impossible. I really couldn't think of one album that could really describe my whole life or experiences. However, in the past year or so I have grown a lot as a person and have recovered from depression that has haunted me since I was very young. (Warning I am about to get real personal up in here, hope you're all cool with that) Around about the time I was having my last real break down/going through recovery I had a friend show me Hiatus Kaiyote. "Choose Your Weapon" became the soundtrack of my new life, a happy one. Guess it was my weapon against depression. I started enjoying music and singing again. Besides me having a very emotional connection to this album, it is also a work of art. I love their almost earthy interpretation of blues and jazz.
"I could, Call your demons aside. Soak them in camomile..." - Breathing Underwater.
Breathing Underwater the first song I heard from this album and it got me hooked. Like the film clip, the song is just so beautiful and calming. I always get very attached to lyrics, which is definitely why I love Hiatus so much, Nai Palm lyrics are pretty poetic.
"It could be the point of letting go..." - Molasses.
This was definitely my favourite from the album. This is the one I would put on volume turned up full and singing at the top of my lungs. I felt like this was almost therapy. It is such a happy uplifting songs (probably because the hint of choir like back up vocals), but my god it helped. Even though she's saying it "Might not get any better" it was almost like I was just accepting that, and that itself was a relief. I stopped the whole whoa is me. I snapped out of it. It was like letting go is okay and I needed to do so in able to strong and healthy again. Which is really why "You the born hunter, Relic with an armoured heart" stuck with me. That and you really can't be sad listening to this song haha.
"Building a ladder of love to you and I hope that love you build one too..." - Building A Ladder.
One of the most horrible things about depression is how much you cut yourself off from the whole world and all the people around you. Whats even worse is that it steals your ability to let people in. I had plenty of friends and some friends that were a bit more if you catch my drift, however I kept everyone at a very comfortable distance. Drugs and alcohol make this extremely easy to do. Around the time that I started putting my life back together I met someone. He was extremely open from the get go, no games, no bullshit. Just love. It was very confronting for me. At first it was difficult to open up again, but when I did it was incredible. We are still together and very much in love :) Annnnnnyway, this song is just the perfect embodiment of just that. Opening yourself back up to good real emotions without fear. An extremely empowering song, that really helped me understand myself during such a hectic time.
Well I didn't intend for this weeks @bloghomework to turn into a bit of a recovery diary but I guess that happens. Thank you @lyxzen @missy and @rambo for another great topic, I did't stick to close to it but it really got my mid ticking.
Hope everyones having a good week! Please do listen "Choose Your Weapon" and there other album "Tawk Tomahawk" I hope you'll see and understand my obsession haha. Thanks for listening to me ramble about bullshit and music :P
Much love,
Vexia x
