Monday Mar 10, 2008

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My family is in town and alot of people are getting together and my mom is upset that I am just not coming. I like my relatives and want to see them, but I don't want to see all of them at once. I feel anxious about it. LIke veryone will be talking to me and surrounding me. Lately I just want to be with very few people. I have been trying to avoid crowds. It's just how I have been feeling. I just feel like I want to be left alone to my rock garden today. I feel good and very peaceful when I am out raking or planting flowers. I started a zen rock garden last fall and I am going to really work on it all spring. I have a nice deck and a back yard that is so full of trees in the summer that I feel like my neighbors are miles away. I love to feel my muscles sore from actual labor. It keeps me in pretty good shape and helps me kick some ass.
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knives2meatyou:
I understand how you feel. I go from one extreme to the other, depending on my mood. There have been many, many times when my best companion is me, and then there are times I like to hang on people like a monkey (well, more like an orangutan). I suspect that when you are so inclined you can be an absolute charmer - the problem is, you want to charm on your schedule, not the rest of the family's.

Where would we societal bi-polar's be without our Internet?
vesuvia:
You're right! I want to charm on my schedule and that's a problem. Hmmm. And where would Polar Bears be without the internet? I have a lot of thinking to do.

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