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venti_mistake

You know where the Mission Cafe is in PB? Yeah, I'm nowhere near that place.

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Wednesday Mar 08, 2006

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Appy like Ippo.

Too little too late.

Wasn't trying to dismiss but came across totally wrong.

Missed a chance at the girl of my "dream."

I'm awesome. Someone should tattoo that on my forehead.

Fuck it. I'll just start believing it.







I was wallowing to deeply in the mud to see how good I really had it.
I was revelling too much in the shadows to see a love right before my eyes.
Then it slapped me in the face for being a fool, for being a coward.
There's a hole in the pit of my stomach, I know I screwed up.
Now, be a man, face it, and move on.
Maybe it will come back, maybe it won't.
But it's no reason to stop living.
So I'll stick to what I've forgotten, the glas is still half-full.
I can at least smile at what could have been.
The past is over, this is who I am right now.
I thought I was trying when I was actually giving up.
I look in the mirror and see a really good guy in a really bad situtation, but it doesn't mean he has to stay there.
I put too much into what others see, when what I see is actually pretty cool.
I thought everyone else was keeping score, when actually it was just me.
No more whining about being a loser, I'm not a loser any more.
Being a loser implies the game is over, but it is far from that.
The game is over when I give up and I just don't see that happening.
Time to wake up and live life with my head up high again.
Don't worry...I wrote this on a piece of paper to remind me that being me is nothing to be ashamed of.
People can love the real me.




So, once again, because it's the happiest dream I've had in a while, and it's still so vivid to me:

Last night I dreamt of you and me sitting at inside a Starbucks. You sipped your drink and made a cute sour face and said it sucked. I said, "let's trade then." And then you kissed my finger. I couldn't stop smiling and looking at you.

Then I could swear I woke up with a smile.



Wouldn't be me without song lyrics, right? wink


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There are places I remember
All my life, though some have changed,
Some forever, not for better,
Some have gone and some remain.
All these places had their moments,
With lovers and friends I still can recall,
Some are dead and some are living,
In my life Ive loved them all.
But of all these friends and lovers,
There is no one compared with you,
And these memries lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new.
Though I know Ill never lose affection
For people and things that went before,
I know Ill often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more.
Though I know Ill never lose affection
For people and things that went before,
I know Ill often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more.
In my life I love you more.

- the Beatles

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