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I have a rough couple weeks since I last posted. About 3 weeks ago I had a friend over for tacos, when introduced him to my dog Nashville, I noticed she seemed a little off. She has been slowly getting older and slower the last few years, but it was almost like shed hurt herself or something had happened to her. Her movement was slower than normal and i found another fatty tumor on her chest. That being said, after that moment she seemed to hit a brick wall in her health and started swift decline. I thought I was being a little hyper sensitive, as I tend to over analyze, but she really just seemed to be doing very poorly. Later that week I took a trip up to LA for the day to spend some time with Callioppe, Exning, Catrina, and a few other ladies around the SG HQ, but when I came home that night her breathing was a bit more labored than normal, and she looked so thin and weak. The next day after watching her struggle terribly trying to get up to go outside repeatedly, refuse to even nibble on some cheese, and the sound of her breathing becoming even more labored I had to make the nearly impossible decision to put her down. I probably could have taken her to the vet and thrown thousands and thousands of dollars at her to stretch her out for another few months, or maybe even a year with a debatably poor quality of life, but I don't think that would be a fair choice, and even thought it was a heart wrenching choice I realized for the situation it was the most merciful one I could make.
That being said, I now realize that it was the first time I've had to do that. All of my pets in the past have either run away towards the end (as some animals do to die), or they have been given away.
It was really tough, but I'm starting to feel a little better about it.
Here are some photos from our last day together:
The actual act couldn't have been any more perfect. I called an equine vet friend I have from when I used to work on the ranches and drove up to his property. We sat in the back of my car in a little parking lot in a field next to a big tree covered creek and a hillside sprinkled with wild sage and flowers with the door open. Even when the vet came over to meet us she popped up using all of her might, barking at the stranger a few times like she always does, then rested back down and laid on my lap. He administered all of the drugs right there in the back of the car and left us alone, with her head resting on my lap. I held her until she was gone, it was absolutely the hardest thing I have ever had to do. But it was perfect.
No noisy scary vet office with animals nervous and shouting around her. No cold metal table and crowds of people she didn't know. Just her and I alone on a farm, just like it had always been.
I found some old photos of her when she was still young and spry, this one is the screen on my phone now:
I also found this one of the two of us when we were both a little younger.
The next morning was just as sad. I kept expecting to hear her little sigh in the corner of the room in the morning while I was laying in bed, or the tick tack of her nails while she was trotting through the hallways to say good morning.
Odin has done a great job keeping me company.
I did pull out my tablet and try to do a little memorial drawing for her on my computer. I haven't tried the whole digital art thing before so I'm proud so far with the outcome:
I still have some work to do on it, but so far so good!
Sorry to have started off on such a heavy note
, there are some awesome things to look forward to here!
for example:
Some set's I have shot are peeking through,
Dali's new set, Kapre: A love story is now available for your eyes and love!
She is such a beautiful person, it was awesome getting to know her, she really deserves all of your uplifting and kind energy!
My true good friend Daila has her debut set, The Hardest Button to Button, coming up!
Go say hi to her! She is RAD.
And at the end of the month Aleena's Resurgence will be upon you!
Also, this happened:
It's kind of an exciting set for me. First off it was shot by Dwam, who has always been such an influence to me. Ever since the first time I logged on to the site I have been in total admiration of her beauty and mind. It's very simple, in MY bedroom, with MY things, and I think it show a little bit of my softer side I try to hard to keep hidden
!
here is another sneak peak:
It is out and ready, so.....
Go check out Stark!
Also, I am having a week long print sale! Enter the code "serpentine" and get $5 off any print from my ETSY shop, venomprints.etsy.com
I hope every one had a safe and fun fourth yesterday! I'm off to go climb some stuff and possibly jump in the ocean ^_^
Until next time
xx
IG and Vine. @VenomBlackbird
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PS3, VenomBlackBird
I have a rough couple weeks since I last posted. About 3 weeks ago I had a friend over for tacos, when introduced him to my dog Nashville, I noticed she seemed a little off. She has been slowly getting older and slower the last few years, but it was almost like shed hurt herself or something had happened to her. Her movement was slower than normal and i found another fatty tumor on her chest. That being said, after that moment she seemed to hit a brick wall in her health and started swift decline. I thought I was being a little hyper sensitive, as I tend to over analyze, but she really just seemed to be doing very poorly. Later that week I took a trip up to LA for the day to spend some time with Callioppe, Exning, Catrina, and a few other ladies around the SG HQ, but when I came home that night her breathing was a bit more labored than normal, and she looked so thin and weak. The next day after watching her struggle terribly trying to get up to go outside repeatedly, refuse to even nibble on some cheese, and the sound of her breathing becoming even more labored I had to make the nearly impossible decision to put her down. I probably could have taken her to the vet and thrown thousands and thousands of dollars at her to stretch her out for another few months, or maybe even a year with a debatably poor quality of life, but I don't think that would be a fair choice, and even thought it was a heart wrenching choice I realized for the situation it was the most merciful one I could make.
That being said, I now realize that it was the first time I've had to do that. All of my pets in the past have either run away towards the end (as some animals do to die), or they have been given away.
It was really tough, but I'm starting to feel a little better about it.
Here are some photos from our last day together:
The actual act couldn't have been any more perfect. I called an equine vet friend I have from when I used to work on the ranches and drove up to his property. We sat in the back of my car in a little parking lot in a field next to a big tree covered creek and a hillside sprinkled with wild sage and flowers with the door open. Even when the vet came over to meet us she popped up using all of her might, barking at the stranger a few times like she always does, then rested back down and laid on my lap. He administered all of the drugs right there in the back of the car and left us alone, with her head resting on my lap. I held her until she was gone, it was absolutely the hardest thing I have ever had to do. But it was perfect.
No noisy scary vet office with animals nervous and shouting around her. No cold metal table and crowds of people she didn't know. Just her and I alone on a farm, just like it had always been.
I found some old photos of her when she was still young and spry, this one is the screen on my phone now:
I also found this one of the two of us when we were both a little younger.
The next morning was just as sad. I kept expecting to hear her little sigh in the corner of the room in the morning while I was laying in bed, or the tick tack of her nails while she was trotting through the hallways to say good morning.
Odin has done a great job keeping me company.
I did pull out my tablet and try to do a little memorial drawing for her on my computer. I haven't tried the whole digital art thing before so I'm proud so far with the outcome:
I still have some work to do on it, but so far so good!
Sorry to have started off on such a heavy note
, there are some awesome things to look forward to here!for example:
Some set's I have shot are peeking through,
Dali's new set, Kapre: A love story is now available for your eyes and love!
She is such a beautiful person, it was awesome getting to know her, she really deserves all of your uplifting and kind energy!
My true good friend Daila has her debut set, The Hardest Button to Button, coming up!
Go say hi to her! She is RAD.
And at the end of the month Aleena's Resurgence will be upon you!
Also, this happened:
It's kind of an exciting set for me. First off it was shot by Dwam, who has always been such an influence to me. Ever since the first time I logged on to the site I have been in total admiration of her beauty and mind. It's very simple, in MY bedroom, with MY things, and I think it show a little bit of my softer side I try to hard to keep hidden
!here is another sneak peak:
It is out and ready, so.....
Go check out Stark!
Also, I am having a week long print sale! Enter the code "serpentine" and get $5 off any print from my ETSY shop, venomprints.etsy.com
I hope every one had a safe and fun fourth yesterday! I'm off to go climb some stuff and possibly jump in the ocean ^_^
Until next time
xx
IG and Vine. @VenomBlackbird
Tumblr
My photography Tumblr
PS3, VenomBlackBird
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windupboy:
It's the hardest part of owning a pet. I cannot even imagine how difficult that was. My dog is a small mutt who is about 5. I hope to have a long time with him before I have to make such decisions.
allanmilk:
Perfect ass