venom

These last few weeks have been so very frustrating and arduous, I've been inevitably left in the same place of despondency I find myself in often. Driving home from work a few nights ago I had an abrupt moment of clarity. I found myself thinking of some of the people I look up to, trying to decode what the reason behind my admiration for them, what the difference between myself and them is. I came to the decision they lived lives that were rich. Not rich in the sense of material items, rich in the sense that made me feel as though my life is poor.
That statement rang through through my head the rest of the hour drive home, I continuously asked my self why
I feel my life is poor. A quote from poet Rainer Maria Rilke I had read off one of AnnLees latest entries, "If your daily life seems poor, do not blame it; blame yourself..." drove through my skull .

With that I decided to challenge myself, to try to change myself. Instead of taking solace in such a cheep and easy emotions as pity, anger, or depression I need to search out and find what it is that makes a rich and full life for me. What can I change about my daily routine that brings me joy and extinguishes the unnecessary routine of desolation I find so familiar.

That being said here is my last weeks homework:

A Rich and Full Life, with Venom

PS:

Next Wednesday.
Get excited. Get very excited.