Hello
I am really over moving, maybe because I keep putting shit off and now its friday and we are moving over the weekend and I still have shitloads to do. Moving in with Adams mum and dad is going to be shit. I hate living with other people and I hate his mum. She is a snobby, uptight, judgemental bitch. I know I shouldn't say that about someones mother but she is. She has never liked me and never will. I don't think I will ever be good enough for her son, yet she loves the fat, ugly, poor-excuse-for-a-mother, psychopath that was his ex-wife. Maybe because they are similar.
I start my new "diet" on monday. I say diet because I don't know what else to call it. Maybe a lifestyle change. I am making a set time everyday to workout. I am cutting down (not cutting out) the sugar because I consume way too much sugar and overall trying to improve my dodgy lifestyle. I am sick of feeling like the fattest girl I know. It doesn't help when I work in a strip club and there is naked skinny girls around me all night. There is no way I would get naked in front of anyone else anymore. The fact that summer is coming eventually scares the crap out of me. Why cant it stay winter forever so I can wear jeans and belly covering tops. The thought of putting a bikini on almost makes me feel sick now. It sucks because guys ask me all the time why i dont dance anymore and i do miss it (sometimes) i used to love getting on stage and preforming for people but now i just say i have retired because im too old and laught it off but it does suck. I really dont feel comfortable in my own body anymore. I know i should love myself for who i am and that im like this because i have had two beautiful children but its still bullshit and i would give anything to be able to feel comfortable and sexy. Its been a long time since I have felt sexy. Anyway enough jabbering on about my insecurities. Sorry for boring you my fingers just kinda got away from me.
Better go and feed the baby and get back to packing
I am really over moving, maybe because I keep putting shit off and now its friday and we are moving over the weekend and I still have shitloads to do. Moving in with Adams mum and dad is going to be shit. I hate living with other people and I hate his mum. She is a snobby, uptight, judgemental bitch. I know I shouldn't say that about someones mother but she is. She has never liked me and never will. I don't think I will ever be good enough for her son, yet she loves the fat, ugly, poor-excuse-for-a-mother, psychopath that was his ex-wife. Maybe because they are similar.
I start my new "diet" on monday. I say diet because I don't know what else to call it. Maybe a lifestyle change. I am making a set time everyday to workout. I am cutting down (not cutting out) the sugar because I consume way too much sugar and overall trying to improve my dodgy lifestyle. I am sick of feeling like the fattest girl I know. It doesn't help when I work in a strip club and there is naked skinny girls around me all night. There is no way I would get naked in front of anyone else anymore. The fact that summer is coming eventually scares the crap out of me. Why cant it stay winter forever so I can wear jeans and belly covering tops. The thought of putting a bikini on almost makes me feel sick now. It sucks because guys ask me all the time why i dont dance anymore and i do miss it (sometimes) i used to love getting on stage and preforming for people but now i just say i have retired because im too old and laught it off but it does suck. I really dont feel comfortable in my own body anymore. I know i should love myself for who i am and that im like this because i have had two beautiful children but its still bullshit and i would give anything to be able to feel comfortable and sexy. Its been a long time since I have felt sexy. Anyway enough jabbering on about my insecurities. Sorry for boring you my fingers just kinda got away from me.
Better go and feed the baby and get back to packing
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There is no way I would get naked in front of anyone else anymore.
Other than me, I assume is what you meant to say.
Seriously, you are waaaay hot and sexy. Unless you have been consistently putting someone else pics on your profile and in your blogs.
I am so sorry you have to move in with your mother-in-law, though. That totally sucks. I know it will be hard to keep perspective on this, but remember that no matter what she says or thinks, you are a sweet, kind person, a good wife, and a good mother. And as long as you are happy with yourself and treat your kids, husband, and friends well, to hell with what other people think of you. Who cares?
Anyway, I hope things go as well for you with the move as they can. And please don't be a stranger here on SG -- we'd miss you terribly, and besides, it's a great place to bitch about your mother-in-law. Just be careful what you say in case she is a closet SG member, too!
Cheers,
SWBdog