I'm off to go swimming today. Hopefully I can get this little one out of me. I'll try anything.
Harley came into my room this morning when she woke up and we were talking about the baby, and she told me the babies name should be Elvis. It was so cute. I think its cool a 2 year old knows who Elvis is (or at least his name) But its a cool name. She does like to dance to Elvis. She does the little hip wiggle. But her fave music is ACDC. What can I say, the girl has taste.
Its strange thinking about how much my life is going to change again. I'm kinda scared at the same time as excited. Harley and I have this incredibly strong bond. We are really in tune with each other. We don't even have to talk to know exactly how each other is feeling. Even when she is staying at my mums I will call mum and say "Is Harley ok?" and mum will say something like, She just fell over and hurt her knee, how did you know. Strange but it happens all the time.
I am scared that I wont have the same bond with the new baby. What if he/she comes out and I don't feel the same connection? or any connection? I don't feel any attachment while they are inside me. I feel no real motherly instinct but thst doesn't bother me because it was the same with harley, until she came out.
How can I have such a strong bond with one. Every tiny cell of my body is madly in love with Harley, how can I feel as strongly about someone else???
Mum says not to worry, but I do. I can't describe the love I have for Harley, there are no words. Is there enough love in me for one more?
I guess its just pre-baby jitters.
Harley came into my room this morning when she woke up and we were talking about the baby, and she told me the babies name should be Elvis. It was so cute. I think its cool a 2 year old knows who Elvis is (or at least his name) But its a cool name. She does like to dance to Elvis. She does the little hip wiggle. But her fave music is ACDC. What can I say, the girl has taste.
Its strange thinking about how much my life is going to change again. I'm kinda scared at the same time as excited. Harley and I have this incredibly strong bond. We are really in tune with each other. We don't even have to talk to know exactly how each other is feeling. Even when she is staying at my mums I will call mum and say "Is Harley ok?" and mum will say something like, She just fell over and hurt her knee, how did you know. Strange but it happens all the time.
I am scared that I wont have the same bond with the new baby. What if he/she comes out and I don't feel the same connection? or any connection? I don't feel any attachment while they are inside me. I feel no real motherly instinct but thst doesn't bother me because it was the same with harley, until she came out.
How can I have such a strong bond with one. Every tiny cell of my body is madly in love with Harley, how can I feel as strongly about someone else???
Mum says not to worry, but I do. I can't describe the love I have for Harley, there are no words. Is there enough love in me for one more?
I guess its just pre-baby jitters.
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I really hope it's prebaby jitters. I've only read about how some young moms favor the first child over the other children. I always assumed it was bullshit. How can any mother favor one over the other. Maybe you're right, that kind of undying love & devotion sort of just materializes once you looking into your brand new baby's eyes. I bet you that's exactly how its gonna happen
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Of course it's bullshit Mum loves us both equally but hey it gets a rise out of my brother, who happens to be my best mate haha
So hey its all good, a mothers love is not divided or shared amongst her children but multiplied
so don't sweat it, you sound like a mother on a righteous path, that will have two very much loved kids to thank for it.