Editing my profile for now and I will try and update my journal a bit this weekend sometime.
I thought that uprooting my life and moving out to Denver would be the biggest change that I could ever make in my life.... I was wrong. Chris and I finally ended things, though it was one of the toughest things i've ever had to do. He does love me, and needs me out here, but in a relationship you need to show that you love the other person, and show some inkling of support for them when they try to better their lives. I did stupid things, but I also learned my lesson hard on those mistakes and have bettered my life for it. With him, I was not respected and no support was shown. I threw away all bad habits that I had including smoking... What did I get from it? "Well if you want to quit, fine, but I'm going to keep doing it right in front of you because i'm not inconveniancing my bad habits because you feel that you have something to prove." Hmmmm...real supportive. I merely asked for him to be semi conscience of the fact that I don't want that shit around me anymore and don't want to see it. Obviously this was a mote pointanyways since he thought it was okay to spend $160 of our rent money on his "bad habits" and screw us.
This transition has been the hardest i've ever endored, but at the same time, the happiest thanks to Storey. He's filled a void in my heart that I never even knew existed. After absorbing some of what's happened it makes me wonder if I ever truely loved at all before now.
I'll end this here, for now....more to come in a few days.
*Velvet hugs all around*
I thought that uprooting my life and moving out to Denver would be the biggest change that I could ever make in my life.... I was wrong. Chris and I finally ended things, though it was one of the toughest things i've ever had to do. He does love me, and needs me out here, but in a relationship you need to show that you love the other person, and show some inkling of support for them when they try to better their lives. I did stupid things, but I also learned my lesson hard on those mistakes and have bettered my life for it. With him, I was not respected and no support was shown. I threw away all bad habits that I had including smoking... What did I get from it? "Well if you want to quit, fine, but I'm going to keep doing it right in front of you because i'm not inconveniancing my bad habits because you feel that you have something to prove." Hmmmm...real supportive. I merely asked for him to be semi conscience of the fact that I don't want that shit around me anymore and don't want to see it. Obviously this was a mote pointanyways since he thought it was okay to spend $160 of our rent money on his "bad habits" and screw us.
This transition has been the hardest i've ever endored, but at the same time, the happiest thanks to Storey. He's filled a void in my heart that I never even knew existed. After absorbing some of what's happened it makes me wonder if I ever truely loved at all before now.
I'll end this here, for now....more to come in a few days.
*Velvet hugs all around*
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