Thank you so much to Storey for buying me a gift re-activation! It means more to me then I could put into words right now. *smiles for the first time in weeks* I owe you big time hun... I saw you write that everything was taken care of, but I didn't realize that was what you meant. 
As for a small update.... things are not going uphill at all really. Or when they do seem to, everything comes rolling back down. My heart is breaking on a daily basis because i'm either being yelled at, or talked down to like a child. Why can't I just be loved and loved for who I am for a change? Instead of told that I need to do this and that differently, or that I need to grow up. I find it utterly amuzing that a man who spends a chunk of our fucking rent money on drugs is calling me a child because I put off doing the dishes until AFTER I cooked him fucking dinner!! I cannot take much more... I can't vent to him about anything... if I do, I get the usual.."shut up and quit being so negative..." and then a long shlew of bitchy comments about how I bring bad karma. Thanks hunny.... love you too.. If I try to confrom him about anything... I'm wrong, he's right and he will tell me to "drop it". If I kick him out... i'm homeless... but if he screams at me agoing over something petty as dishes again, I might just take that gammble.
I'm trying my damnest not to get depressed over the stresses and shit going on... I really need this like a hole in the head.. really. Things are gonna have to change or i'm going to lose it.
Sorry for the vent, but this is the only place I can do it at anymore really.
**Edited to add**
Today was a better day... I got a hummble apologie for the yelling and such. My buddy Badger and I are going to try our hand at finally opening our art business... it will be a slow start, but I got great ideas, and he seems excited about them. I'll post pics once we get one of the masterpieces made ^_^.
There is a craft show Nov. 7th and I will be there with some witchy remedies if all goes well. If not we'll be there with some smaller artsy stuff if we can't get my ideas built in time.
OMG... yes.. I smiled O_O
Figured It was time for a new pic ^_^
As for a small update.... things are not going uphill at all really. Or when they do seem to, everything comes rolling back down. My heart is breaking on a daily basis because i'm either being yelled at, or talked down to like a child. Why can't I just be loved and loved for who I am for a change? Instead of told that I need to do this and that differently, or that I need to grow up. I find it utterly amuzing that a man who spends a chunk of our fucking rent money on drugs is calling me a child because I put off doing the dishes until AFTER I cooked him fucking dinner!! I cannot take much more... I can't vent to him about anything... if I do, I get the usual.."shut up and quit being so negative..." and then a long shlew of bitchy comments about how I bring bad karma. Thanks hunny.... love you too.. If I try to confrom him about anything... I'm wrong, he's right and he will tell me to "drop it". If I kick him out... i'm homeless... but if he screams at me agoing over something petty as dishes again, I might just take that gammble.
I'm trying my damnest not to get depressed over the stresses and shit going on... I really need this like a hole in the head.. really. Things are gonna have to change or i'm going to lose it.
Sorry for the vent, but this is the only place I can do it at anymore really.
**Edited to add**
Today was a better day... I got a hummble apologie for the yelling and such. My buddy Badger and I are going to try our hand at finally opening our art business... it will be a slow start, but I got great ideas, and he seems excited about them. I'll post pics once we get one of the masterpieces made ^_^.
There is a craft show Nov. 7th and I will be there with some witchy remedies if all goes well. If not we'll be there with some smaller artsy stuff if we can't get my ideas built in time.
OMG... yes.. I smiled O_O
Figured It was time for a new pic ^_^
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I hope you don't think I talk down to you... I'm way too fond of you.
And your beau needs a boot to the head for that. Well, he apologized, so maybe just a boot threat.
You always looked so beautiful when you smiled.