null(More from my LJ... i've been too busy to write different stuff for here and there... so here ya have it. Dawn=Best girl friend, Chris= Best Guy friend, Terri= Good freind i am getting a condo with in Denver, Jon=Thirty-six and Two. >_< Yes...yes... i just put foot notes on my post... shush 
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I have no idea how I'm going to pull this move off. *sighs* Because my
stupid ass marked the wrong weeks on the calendar for my paydays I got
behind and I don't know how I'm going to do this. I'm going to be
working between 35-45 hours of overtime within the next 4 weekends. I'll
have enough money to scrap by with all of my bills for June... but I HAVE
to have a job before I move. I have tried to get a hold of Chris'
sister several times and we've been basically playing phone tag. Every time
I've called she's not home and she has my toll free work number but has
never called. I left a message for Terri tonight to hold the check I
sent her until the 7th of May or she's going to screw me royally. When
she calls me, IF she calls me, I'm going to see if I can send her my
resume to turn into the county job that she works for. If I don't hear
anything job wise in the next two weeks I'm going to beg Premier Source
delivery to hire me for a while so I'll at least have a paycheck coming
in. Everyone keeps assuring me that "Oh things will work out... don't
stress..." *laughs at that* Shit doesn't just "work out" for me... I
appreciate the meaning behind people saying that... but realistically I
can't just "go on faith" that things will work out.
I know...I worry too much... but some things can't be helped. I'm
working 10pm until 6am Saturday into Sunday and then 6pm until 10pm Sunday
night this weekend. Somewhere in between all of that I need to empty the
boxes and crap from my closet and go through it to take over the stuff
I'm getting rid of to Dawns for the Yard sale. There has been minimal
communication between Terri and I because she's been so busy, I don't
even know what the hell I'm paying rent wise when I get there and when
it's due. Mom's still not letting this move sink in... I was at their
house tonight playing with the Yorkie and she asked me.. "So okay...
you're going to Denver for a while... but then what? Are you coming back or
moving somewhere else after that?" She's not going to make this easy. I
have a tear in my eye right now just thinking back to the heartbroken
look on her face when I told her that I was planning to stay out there
for good. I told her that I would fly back to visit every few months,
but she didn't believe me.
Starting Monday I'm going to be hitting the gym and doing my workout
5-7 nights a week now. I feel like I'm back pedaling on that because I've
been so busy with other things. I know Jon, Dawn and Kat and everyone
wants to spend time with me before I go, but I just can't commit the
time anymore. I've pissed away all of my savings and was out hanging out
with friends when I should have been working overtime. Real responsible
of me huh? I need to put my foot down and get this stuff done. I have 4
more weeks to do the impossible and it's going to get done damn it.
I've got so much stuff bouncing around in my head that needs done, and I'm
stressing so bad I just want to scream right now. *burps lightly from
the 5 cups of water she just drank* Not a scream... but the best I'm
going to get here at work right now. They might start thinking that my
"cute but psycho" ID necklace is the truth if I just belt out a scream and
go back to what I was going. *ponders doing it anyways*
On a chipper note... I saw The Punisher the other night. GREAT movie.
Sick as hell and gory fights.. I didn't think I'd like it, but it was
really cool. I wanted to see "13 Going on 30" with Jennifer Garner but
it's not out in the theaters yet apparently. I could use a good comedy
right about now... plus Jen is absolute eye candy. *grins slightly*
Thought of the Day:
"I am not ashamed to confess that I am ignorant of what I do not know"
~Cicero
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I have no idea how I'm going to pull this move off. *sighs* Because my
stupid ass marked the wrong weeks on the calendar for my paydays I got
behind and I don't know how I'm going to do this. I'm going to be
working between 35-45 hours of overtime within the next 4 weekends. I'll
have enough money to scrap by with all of my bills for June... but I HAVE
to have a job before I move. I have tried to get a hold of Chris'
sister several times and we've been basically playing phone tag. Every time
I've called she's not home and she has my toll free work number but has
never called. I left a message for Terri tonight to hold the check I
sent her until the 7th of May or she's going to screw me royally. When
she calls me, IF she calls me, I'm going to see if I can send her my
resume to turn into the county job that she works for. If I don't hear
anything job wise in the next two weeks I'm going to beg Premier Source
delivery to hire me for a while so I'll at least have a paycheck coming
in. Everyone keeps assuring me that "Oh things will work out... don't
stress..." *laughs at that* Shit doesn't just "work out" for me... I
appreciate the meaning behind people saying that... but realistically I
can't just "go on faith" that things will work out.
I know...I worry too much... but some things can't be helped. I'm
working 10pm until 6am Saturday into Sunday and then 6pm until 10pm Sunday
night this weekend. Somewhere in between all of that I need to empty the
boxes and crap from my closet and go through it to take over the stuff
I'm getting rid of to Dawns for the Yard sale. There has been minimal
communication between Terri and I because she's been so busy, I don't
even know what the hell I'm paying rent wise when I get there and when
it's due. Mom's still not letting this move sink in... I was at their
house tonight playing with the Yorkie and she asked me.. "So okay...
you're going to Denver for a while... but then what? Are you coming back or
moving somewhere else after that?" She's not going to make this easy. I
have a tear in my eye right now just thinking back to the heartbroken
look on her face when I told her that I was planning to stay out there
for good. I told her that I would fly back to visit every few months,
but she didn't believe me.
Starting Monday I'm going to be hitting the gym and doing my workout
5-7 nights a week now. I feel like I'm back pedaling on that because I've
been so busy with other things. I know Jon, Dawn and Kat and everyone
wants to spend time with me before I go, but I just can't commit the
time anymore. I've pissed away all of my savings and was out hanging out
with friends when I should have been working overtime. Real responsible
of me huh? I need to put my foot down and get this stuff done. I have 4
more weeks to do the impossible and it's going to get done damn it.
I've got so much stuff bouncing around in my head that needs done, and I'm
stressing so bad I just want to scream right now. *burps lightly from
the 5 cups of water she just drank* Not a scream... but the best I'm
going to get here at work right now. They might start thinking that my
"cute but psycho" ID necklace is the truth if I just belt out a scream and
go back to what I was going. *ponders doing it anyways*
On a chipper note... I saw The Punisher the other night. GREAT movie.
Sick as hell and gory fights.. I didn't think I'd like it, but it was
really cool. I wanted to see "13 Going on 30" with Jennifer Garner but
it's not out in the theaters yet apparently. I could use a good comedy
right about now... plus Jen is absolute eye candy. *grins slightly*
Thought of the Day:
"I am not ashamed to confess that I am ignorant of what I do not know"
~Cicero