There was a thread asking to share something beautiful. This was too long for a contribution, and if it is found beautiful by all, I'd much rather share it with everyone...so here goes:
I read a lot of comics, but this passage here is by far my favourite. It's taken from
V for Vendetta, by Alan Moore and David Lloyd. I transcribe this here for you (with apologies to the aforementioned, but hopefully they'll forgive once they see the intent) all to read before Hollywood destroys the fantasies that I've lived with these characters, before it robs them of their strength, charm and vitality. So for all my new acquaintances, for all my newly met friends...I invite you all to read this, this illegal passage here in it's entirety, and enjoy.
(PS. This is a sad passage...and yet there is strength in it)
SPOILERS! (Click to view)I don't know who you are. Please believe. There is no way I can convince you that this is not one of their tricks but I don't care. I am me, and I don't know who you are but I love you.
I have a pencil. A little one they did not find. I am a woman. I hid it inside me. Perhaps I won't be able to write again, so this is a long letter about my life. It is the only autobiography I will ever write and oh God I'm writing it on toilet paper.
I was born in Nottingham in 1957, and it rained a lot. I passed my eleven plus and went to girl's grammar. I wanted to be an actress.
I met my girst girlfriend at school.
Her name was Sara. She was fourteen and I was fifteen but we were both in Miss Watson's class. Her wrists. Her wrists were beautiful.
I sat in biology class, staring at the pickled rabbit foetus in its jar, listening while Mr. Hird said it was an adolescent phase that people outgrew...Sara did. I didn't.
In 1976 I stopped pretending and took a girl called Christine home to meet my parents. A week later I moved to London, enrolling at drama college. My mother said I broke her heart...
...but it was my integrity that was important. Is that so selfish? It sells for so little, but it's all we have left in this place. It is the very last inch of us...
...but within that inch we are free.
London: I was happy in London. In 1981 I played Dandini in Cinderella. My first rep work. The world was strange and rustling and busy, with invisible crowds behind the hot lights and all that breathless glamour. It was exciting and it was lonely. At nights I'd go to Grieway or one of the other clubs, but I was stand-offish and didn't mix easily. I saw a lot of the scene, but I never felt comfortable there. So many of them just wanted to be gay. It was their life, their ambition, all they talked about...and I wanted more than that.
Work improved. I got smaller film roles, then bigger ones. In 1986 I starred in 'The Salt Flats'. It pulled in the awards but not the crowds.
I met Ruth while working on that. We loved each other.
We lived together, and on Valentine's Day she sent me roses, and oh God, we had so much.
Those were the best three years of my life.
In 1988 there was the war...
...and after that there were no more roses.
Not for anybody.
In 1992, after the take-over, they started rounding up the gays. They took Ruth while she was out looking for food. Why are they so frightened of us?
They burned her with cigarette ends and made her give them my name. She signed a statement saying I'd seduced her.
I didn't blame her. God. I loved her. I didn't blame her.
But she did. She killed herself in her cell. She couldn't live with betraying me, with giving up that last inch.
Oh Ruth.
They came for me. They told me that all my films would be burned. They shaved off my hair. They held my head down a toilet bowl and told jokes about lesbians. They brought me here and gave me drugs. I can't feel my tongue anymore. I can't speak.
The other gay woman here, Rita, died two weeks ago. I imagine I'll die quite soon.
It is strange that my life should end in such a terrible place, but for three years I had roses and I apologised to nobody.
I shall die here. Every inch o fme shall perish...
...except one.
An inch.
It's small and it's fragile and it's the only thing in the world that's worth having. We must never lose it, or sell it, or give it away. We must never let them take it from us.
I don't know who you are, or whether you're a man or woman. I may never see you. I will never hug you or cry with you or get drunk with you.
But I love you.
I hope that you escape this place.
I hope that the world turns and that things get better, and that one day people will have roses again.
I wish I could kiss you.
Valerie
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If you ever get the chance, I recommend picking up the book.
