Hi all,
Right now I am writing this from Stockholm, Sweden.
It hit me recently that I am doing an awful lot of travelling.
I am having a good time here in Sweden. The weather is amazing. The skies are clear and blue, the sun is out and almost a white-yellow in intensity. I'm further north than London but enjoying weather 10 times better. It's miserable and grey in London, but here, Spring is in full gear!
I don't know why, but I've got a spring in my step. I think it's partly the whole holiday thing...of temporarily dropping responsibility, sort of being freed.
I've never eye-flirted this much ever since I was...well....jeeez...it's been a while. I'm much less likely to have a girl look at me and I immediately think "Oh she must be looking at me cos I'm weird-looking" and I never smile. Now I assume the opposite - because honestly, who is it hurting to assume the positive? If you're wrong, well it's just 5 seconds on a street or in a train station somewhere and you'll never meet them again! - and when I assume the opposite, now I'll dare to venture a smile across the short-yet-far distance. It's related to something I was telling starisea that I need to take myself and other people less seriously. A social faux pas at this level isn't the end of the world you know?
Who knows? That girl may very well walk away happy with a smile in her heart because a totally random guy looked her way and smiled and it had no hint of lecherousness in it. It was, indeed, a genuine sincere gesture of 'I like what I see'.
I also forgot just how hot Swedish girls are. They got this fashion right now of tucking tight jeans into calf-length leather stilleto heel boots...usually with something extra about the boot...like cowboy style frills or buckels and zips. I am telling you, I have never seen so many great looking rear ends...and boots! BOOTS! BOOOOOOOOOTS!
Ladies...try it out...it is trs flattering to the female derrire!
***
I was part of an Easter ceremony yesterday and sunset, discarding the unwanted things with winter and embracing the wanted things with spring.
We faced the four directions and shared a chalice of wine (which was actually a dry herb jar) which we sent around three times. The first time for each person to wish for a negative thing to be removed or solved. For me I asked to be less obsessive about things I couldn't change and to take things less seriously.
The second round was for the things we wished for. I wished for success with my university radio show, and a good job for summer, because I really, really wish to see my bestest friend Eden* in the States.
The third round was for giving thanks to whatever we believed was in charge. For the 3 witches there - Linda being one of them - they thanked Mother Earth. I thanked - because I must be honest - "whatever is out there".
Then we sat around the fire we had started for the ceremony and atop the large granite butte, we drank ourselves silly with the wine we had.
Linda was to say later that it was the best ceremony she had ever done. It is exactly how ceremonies should be. Not serious at all, but lighthearted and open, because I can tell you we spilled the wine, we made tasteless jokes about asking a Mr Squirrel about his nuts, Linda fell over a couple of times, then she was tackled and wrestled by Camilla, another witch there, we made yet more tasteless jokes about the elemnt of Wind and how important it is to flatulence...we were really VERY SILLY! The four of us had a good time and it felt right to be there. We even seemed to pick the right cardinal points for ourselves. I was sitting in the South, which is associated with Fire, and happenes to be the element of my chinese sign, the 1977 Fire Snake.
This happens everytime I meet Linda. I always end up doing magic with her. Does everyone remember the witch I really love? Yes, she's in good health, and not as dependent on the prozac type drugs. She's had a crisis of faith, but she's come through still a believer in her witchy way of life and being forced to sort through the psychic impressions that really did come from outside of her, and the false psychic impressions that came from her psychosis has had perhaps a very beneficial and ironically healing effect on her.
And best of all. We still have lots of love for each other. She makes me very happy. And I her.
Right now I am writing this from Stockholm, Sweden.
It hit me recently that I am doing an awful lot of travelling.
I am having a good time here in Sweden. The weather is amazing. The skies are clear and blue, the sun is out and almost a white-yellow in intensity. I'm further north than London but enjoying weather 10 times better. It's miserable and grey in London, but here, Spring is in full gear!
I don't know why, but I've got a spring in my step. I think it's partly the whole holiday thing...of temporarily dropping responsibility, sort of being freed.
I've never eye-flirted this much ever since I was...well....jeeez...it's been a while. I'm much less likely to have a girl look at me and I immediately think "Oh she must be looking at me cos I'm weird-looking" and I never smile. Now I assume the opposite - because honestly, who is it hurting to assume the positive? If you're wrong, well it's just 5 seconds on a street or in a train station somewhere and you'll never meet them again! - and when I assume the opposite, now I'll dare to venture a smile across the short-yet-far distance. It's related to something I was telling starisea that I need to take myself and other people less seriously. A social faux pas at this level isn't the end of the world you know?
Who knows? That girl may very well walk away happy with a smile in her heart because a totally random guy looked her way and smiled and it had no hint of lecherousness in it. It was, indeed, a genuine sincere gesture of 'I like what I see'.
I also forgot just how hot Swedish girls are. They got this fashion right now of tucking tight jeans into calf-length leather stilleto heel boots...usually with something extra about the boot...like cowboy style frills or buckels and zips. I am telling you, I have never seen so many great looking rear ends...and boots! BOOTS! BOOOOOOOOOTS!
Ladies...try it out...it is trs flattering to the female derrire!
***
I was part of an Easter ceremony yesterday and sunset, discarding the unwanted things with winter and embracing the wanted things with spring.
We faced the four directions and shared a chalice of wine (which was actually a dry herb jar) which we sent around three times. The first time for each person to wish for a negative thing to be removed or solved. For me I asked to be less obsessive about things I couldn't change and to take things less seriously.
The second round was for the things we wished for. I wished for success with my university radio show, and a good job for summer, because I really, really wish to see my bestest friend Eden* in the States.
The third round was for giving thanks to whatever we believed was in charge. For the 3 witches there - Linda being one of them - they thanked Mother Earth. I thanked - because I must be honest - "whatever is out there".
Then we sat around the fire we had started for the ceremony and atop the large granite butte, we drank ourselves silly with the wine we had.
Linda was to say later that it was the best ceremony she had ever done. It is exactly how ceremonies should be. Not serious at all, but lighthearted and open, because I can tell you we spilled the wine, we made tasteless jokes about asking a Mr Squirrel about his nuts, Linda fell over a couple of times, then she was tackled and wrestled by Camilla, another witch there, we made yet more tasteless jokes about the elemnt of Wind and how important it is to flatulence...we were really VERY SILLY! The four of us had a good time and it felt right to be there. We even seemed to pick the right cardinal points for ourselves. I was sitting in the South, which is associated with Fire, and happenes to be the element of my chinese sign, the 1977 Fire Snake.
This happens everytime I meet Linda. I always end up doing magic with her. Does everyone remember the witch I really love? Yes, she's in good health, and not as dependent on the prozac type drugs. She's had a crisis of faith, but she's come through still a believer in her witchy way of life and being forced to sort through the psychic impressions that really did come from outside of her, and the false psychic impressions that came from her psychosis has had perhaps a very beneficial and ironically healing effect on her.
And best of all. We still have lots of love for each other. She makes me very happy. And I her.
things in life are going well for the moment. i am just enjoying all it gives me. i don't want to taint these moments of joy.
i am glad to hear that you have begun the blossoming. you are heading into something amazing munir. i know it.
i remember linda. that brings back memories of when we first met here.. the wonderful journal entries of your sweet, mad crush
i am so glad you are back on SG, i missed you sooo much. you are part of my SG world. stay with me, play with me!!!
much lovins seXXXy boy
But I think I might like this kind better.
I thought you'd remember, we discussed eye surgery... unless (now you're making me think I'm forgetting) it was someone else. I just feel like nothing's perfect-- glasses, contacts, and now this... but this is a lot less hassle. My vision's fluctuating still, as in details at long distance... but I'm still glad I got it done. If my vision weakens a bit (and the doctors say everyone needs reading glasses eventually) I'd just get some glasses for odd moments when I cared about details (movies, shows, stuff like that) and feel fine about it.
I never did answer your question from before! Tell you what, here's a realization I've had lately, call it an epiphany of sorts-- I have become way more of a loner than I ever thought I'd be, by default at first... but I think it's surprisingly good. I'm able to fill time pretty handily when nobody else is around. Being a loner is not about disliking people; you can also observe the world very closely, learn a lot, and experience things sharply, alone. (Well, maybe this is all obvious...)