Happy New Year!
It's 2004 already...eesh...
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For those who wrote a while back, forgive my lack of communication, I had so many other things to do over this holiday.
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I had a good learning/growing up holiday. I had a good sitdown talk over coffee and later some beer with my ex-girlfriend. We discussed our relationship of 2 years ago and it was good to come out with it. Many questions, regrets, confusions and well...whatever we could come up with, we talked about.
It was good and the conclusion I have for myself is that perhaps it is time to acknowledge that I am not ready for any kind of commitment or relationship of any sort. I have been looking for it, sure, but now I really know I couldn't make it work. I am lonely but only sometimes. I am horny, but again, only sometimes.
I think this year, I should just focus on other things. Career, education, ambitions, dreams, ideas, politics...namely...ME.
In a phonecall a fornight ago to blasfemme, I know I made an utterly opposite New Year's Resolution because of so much from my teen years I wanted to make up for. Well babe, I've now swung the other way.
Hopefully this means I've grown up a little. That giving up on the whole sex-rat-race isn't so dishonorable or shameful a thing.
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Some of you may have heard a thing or two about Cassandra, a Canadian girl I was excited to see here in Singapore. Well...nothing came of it. If anything, after my experience over New Year's with her and her friends, I began to seriously wonder what I was doing with her, and what she was doing with them [her 'friends']. Cassandra has had a lot of bad shit happen to her over the last year in Canada, most of it by people she thought were her friends. But after I saw the kind of people she hung out with....I wasn't surprised anymore. Cassandra herself is better than the rest of them, but I can't really say because I might be biased. But she certainly has some low standards.
There was a bit of drama with her ex-boyfriend who was psychologically abusive and it pissed me off too see her fraternising with him at the New Year's party. Turns out I had no reason to be pissed. They had a talk, settled some issues and closed the book. The next day when the ex called her to hang out, she told him she didn't think it would be a good idea for them to see each other ever again. And he's been gone since.
I feel I certainly know how to pick the gorgeous ones....but never the one's with simple drama!!! I have had crushes on girls that, were I to take them to a psychiatrist, would definitely be diagnosed for mental and emotional issues.
The dating world seems a dangerous place, full of mad people.
It's 2004 already...eesh...
***
For those who wrote a while back, forgive my lack of communication, I had so many other things to do over this holiday.
***
I had a good learning/growing up holiday. I had a good sitdown talk over coffee and later some beer with my ex-girlfriend. We discussed our relationship of 2 years ago and it was good to come out with it. Many questions, regrets, confusions and well...whatever we could come up with, we talked about.
It was good and the conclusion I have for myself is that perhaps it is time to acknowledge that I am not ready for any kind of commitment or relationship of any sort. I have been looking for it, sure, but now I really know I couldn't make it work. I am lonely but only sometimes. I am horny, but again, only sometimes.
I think this year, I should just focus on other things. Career, education, ambitions, dreams, ideas, politics...namely...ME.
In a phonecall a fornight ago to blasfemme, I know I made an utterly opposite New Year's Resolution because of so much from my teen years I wanted to make up for. Well babe, I've now swung the other way.
Hopefully this means I've grown up a little. That giving up on the whole sex-rat-race isn't so dishonorable or shameful a thing.
***
Some of you may have heard a thing or two about Cassandra, a Canadian girl I was excited to see here in Singapore. Well...nothing came of it. If anything, after my experience over New Year's with her and her friends, I began to seriously wonder what I was doing with her, and what she was doing with them [her 'friends']. Cassandra has had a lot of bad shit happen to her over the last year in Canada, most of it by people she thought were her friends. But after I saw the kind of people she hung out with....I wasn't surprised anymore. Cassandra herself is better than the rest of them, but I can't really say because I might be biased. But she certainly has some low standards.
There was a bit of drama with her ex-boyfriend who was psychologically abusive and it pissed me off too see her fraternising with him at the New Year's party. Turns out I had no reason to be pissed. They had a talk, settled some issues and closed the book. The next day when the ex called her to hang out, she told him she didn't think it would be a good idea for them to see each other ever again. And he's been gone since.
I feel I certainly know how to pick the gorgeous ones....but never the one's with simple drama!!! I have had crushes on girls that, were I to take them to a psychiatrist, would definitely be diagnosed for mental and emotional issues.
The dating world seems a dangerous place, full of mad people.
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maelwys:
No worries, I know what the flu can do to you, been trying to shake mine off for near 2 months with little success. Only just getting rid of the bloody thing. Hope you had a good night out on the town anyway Maybe see you on the 24th then.
Maybe see you on the 24th then.
ladydeath:
Why of course I have found lucrative employment, my little Vastad. I'm the Nocturnal creture of the night at WKBC, or in normal terms I'm the night manager at the local radio station. No longer on the air I'm behind the scenes. Being held responsiable for the night dj's.