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I'm getting all this weird spiritual stuff going on around me.

Yesterday Linda and Me did a spell to help her ex's cat find her way home after running away and getting lost. I followed her lead and did what came natural like I'd always done it before. We faced the four compass directions and invoked a circle of protection. Then, facing each other she concluded with 'As above, So below, so in our Hearts', something like that. She told me to use the catnip we had a pinch of in our hands, sprinkle in a circular motion three times round the candle between us and picture in the mind's eye, the catnip turning into golden spots of light shooting up over the city and drifting down to Toliloquy, her ex's cat. Once we'd both done that, we continue to run that little movie in our heads. that's when I had this really weird sensation like my head was trying to float off on it's own. When I opend my eyes, the candle flame was about 6 to 7 inches tall and dancing really enthusiastically. Linda said we'd attracted a spirit. When it died down after about 60 seconds, she concluded the ceremony, then we repeated the circle invocation and reversed it and gave thanks for the protection.

Today while answering and writing in other people's journals I am filled with information. The weirdest part is how SURE I am in the information I'm getting. Their is some strong force behind some of this information. Like it's unstoppable in it's...it's "Truth".

The fiery red and yellow energies are really bright. Really strong. My melancholy swings are much less, and I can fight off depressing tendencies in my thoughts much easier. Now when I think things like "if only I were more like this things would be better" "she wuld like me" etc. now I have begun amending them, to the end of those sentences I'll attach internal statements to myself like "if only I were more..whatever...but if I were I wouldn't be who I was, and who I am is perfect for the present, is great starting point for the futures to come" or "if only I were cooler/fitter/funnier etc she would like me BUT no I'm just right for the perfect girl that will come along, if I changed as I wished I might be so different the perfect girl wouldn't recognise me because I wouldn't be perfect as I already am".....things like that...

so unusual...so exciting these changes...

I'm feeling all these....these things inside...such confidence, such power, such TRUST in myself...wow...where is it all from?

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EDIT:

I know I've begun answering a few of you in weird intensive ways and I apologise if I'm scaring you. I'm kind of scaring me too.

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EDIT 2:

I forgot to mention...heheh....I forgot to mention that the cat we did the spell for showed up like an hour later. Erik (her ex) and the cat practically walked into each other and almost became a tangle of limbs and fur. He was very happy and grateful.

Linda wants to do more magic with me because she felt really good with me as a ritual partner.