I have grown so sick of this place...
I fucked around with life so long that i drove most anyone decent away from me, then i was forced to stop paying attention to the parasites I was hosting, most of them finally dried up and fell off.
When I sleep, I sleep alone, When I go out, I do so alone.
I eat alone. I...
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I fucked around with life so long that i drove most anyone decent away from me, then i was forced to stop paying attention to the parasites I was hosting, most of them finally dried up and fell off.
When I sleep, I sleep alone, When I go out, I do so alone.
I eat alone. I...
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and so once again. I have returned to SG and the web at large.
regular interenet access, so, ill be around.
I am going to see what has been added these past 90 days
regular interenet access, so, ill be around.
I am going to see what has been added these past 90 days
cureelise:
hey sweetie - how r u doing ? hope things are going well - my life is going to be changing in more then one way - I'm preggie with TWINS 
still kinda freaking out about it - but I think that will pass sooner or later - be around more so I know what's up with u
still kinda freaking out about it - but I think that will pass sooner or later - be around more so I know what's up with utired the boy... more for the wear...
Im not capable of your shit, Im not.
I don't care if I am totally adrift or not... im not going to just grasp at any connection.
My life is fucking MIRED in leeches, liars, and users.
I don't need you, I don't wan't you.
You cannot be loved, You will never rise into anything.
face it and...
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moya:
I hope autumn is going well on the other side of the lake. 
cureelise:
hope u had a good x-mas - I miss u sweetie - hope all is well with u - I'm going to have to write u soon once I find my old addy book with your addy in it- 
Event Announcement!!!
The below upcoming event promises to be excellent.
It includes an installation by famed artist Alex Grey (Tool vidoes, Animation segments, etc.) Alex works with both constructive an electronic media to produce his visualy profound work. As often discussed, Alex's work is heavily inspired by his initiation and progress in enthoegenic transendental process, particularly in terms of his work with DmT.
If possible,...
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The below upcoming event promises to be excellent.
It includes an installation by famed artist Alex Grey (Tool vidoes, Animation segments, etc.) Alex works with both constructive an electronic media to produce his visualy profound work. As often discussed, Alex's work is heavily inspired by his initiation and progress in enthoegenic transendental process, particularly in terms of his work with DmT.
If possible,...
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saturn1:
i am in chicago now.
cureelise:
hey sweetness - miss chatting with u - hope all is well - things are so so for me at the moment - been real emotional n doing a lot of crying
not - a -LIE ??
It's been so long... too long.
I went to Luna tonight. I haven't been in a very long time.
I stopped there because I was in that neighborhood, I didn't want to go home.
I don't like sitting in my place all of the time with noone near.. it is starting to hurt way too bad.
I didn't really know...
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the girl my heart made me love is somewhere right now having caveman sex with some dumb-cock animal.
i can only make stupid tears.
i hate being human, or anything like it.
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vivid:
Imagine meeting you here, in a place like this.
I hope things are better by now.
--a stranger who says hello, but a stranger nonetheless
I hope things are better by now.
--a stranger who says hello, but a stranger nonetheless
cureelise:
miss u sweetie
miss u sweetie
cureelise:
Jesus Mary and Josephine 
for once I think I'm actually speechless
for once I think I'm actually speechless
fatality:
Welcome to the Halo!
Life, for some people, is a bitter trial.
It is so, because they are aware of the hidden nightmare beneath waking life...
..the unending river of sadness.
They live at all times knowing it, feeling it.. hurting.
And there are those who are unaware. The vast legion of humankind...
Silly, decadent fuckers... trapped in mundane obsession.
Vane, selfish, and cruel.
They are bent on filling...
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It is so, because they are aware of the hidden nightmare beneath waking life...
..the unending river of sadness.
They live at all times knowing it, feeling it.. hurting.
And there are those who are unaware. The vast legion of humankind...
Silly, decadent fuckers... trapped in mundane obsession.
Vane, selfish, and cruel.
They are bent on filling...
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I'm a soldier, born to stand
in this waking hell I am
witnessing more
than I can understand
in this waking hell I am
witnessing more
than I can understand
cureelise:
was supposed to be in your area next weekend but it looks like we might not be able to make it. 
was hoping to be able to finally meet u - guess it will have to wait. 
paying bills comes before trips to detroit or wherever else we decide to go
was hoping to be able to finally meet u - guess it will have to wait. paying bills comes before trips to detroit or wherever else we decide to goI haven't written in a really long time.
I haven't even looked around the site in over six months... i wonder if there any good new sets?
I dont think i write because it isnt like anyone would read this anyway. I write entries all day long on paper.
I wish I had some good news, but my life is a total sewer.
I dont...
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I haven't even looked around the site in over six months... i wonder if there any good new sets?
I dont think i write because it isnt like anyone would read this anyway. I write entries all day long on paper.
I wish I had some good news, but my life is a total sewer.
I dont...
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cureelise:
hey sweetie - u still working at b repub ???? I wish u're life wasn't so full of sadness.* I want out of here.. i am bored, I am burned out.* I know how that feels. I need something new in my life . my life has had a few changes - germ and I aren't chatting as much as we use to, my bestfriends mom isn't well and he fears that her time might be coming soon - he doesn't know how he's going to deal- feel that it's time for a new look or some new ink. getting bored with what I see in the mirror - feel like I want to shed my skin.
Long time...
I live quietly now.
Today, incidentally, was an upheaval.
Cast back by another pretty little foe.
Some enemy that i never really knew.
A liar that i cannot unlove.
it hurts.
missing you still hurts.. days or years away.
i tried to give of myself. I was lost. didn't you ever bother to think that i might actually not be evil?
I just...
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I live quietly now.
Today, incidentally, was an upheaval.
Cast back by another pretty little foe.
Some enemy that i never really knew.
A liar that i cannot unlove.
it hurts.
missing you still hurts.. days or years away.
i tried to give of myself. I was lost. didn't you ever bother to think that i might actually not be evil?
I just...
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cureelise:
hey sweetie- how are things going ? Been thinking about u and was planning on calling - need to find your number first . it's around here somewhere.
Yeah, I am still around.
No access right now.
Ive been working ALOT at BR. but I was fored sop that is over with. I will be online soon..
No access right now.
Ive been working ALOT at BR. but I was fored sop that is over with. I will be online soon..
cureelise:
hey sweetie I lost your addy and was going to send u an x-mas card- it's kinda too late for that I guess - but can u email me it anyways so I can have it ready for next year or for whatever else I end up sending u.
I hope your birthday is refreshingly free from crotch hungry, abusive, braindead cavemen