Finding Focus, Day 16: Listen To Jesus, Jimmy
Brian has been down the past couple of days so I haven't been able to get a whole lot done. That's cool, though. Visitors from Asheville have become fewer and farther between. Of course, people from the City of Ashes that I'd care to have visit are becoming fewer and farther between.
Planning for the Gemini Wonder Twins Birthday party has been driving me slightly mad. This is the biggest thing I've ever planned, with what looks like around about 50 or so people aiming to show up. It just sometimes amazes me sometimes that I know so many people but I guess the more the merrier, right? Of course, it scared the hell out of me when I threw my birthday party last year, as it was the biggest I'd ever planned up to that point and it was the first I threw since moving to Atlanta. That turned out to be fantastic, aside from one problem person who isn't invited this year and just to be safe I'll have a couple of security goons on hand who're paid to deal with that sort of crap for me. I just have to keep reminding myself that I know how to throw a good party and my friends are some of the coolest people around. It's going to be fucking awesome. I just need to stop worrying too much about all the things that might go wrong and just concentrate on doing things right. Food, booze, music, awesome people, and gratuitous nudity. These are all that are needed for a great party and we will have all of those things whether Debra's school check gets here or not. If I have to pawn my cameras after the party to pay my rent because I spent the rent money on the party then so be it. I only turn 30 once and Brenda only turns 21 once. We will never share milestone birthdays like that again.
Sometimes you just have to take a leap of faith. I know that throwing mine and Brenda's birthday party at the Spring4th Center was something I passionately wanted to do and I'm determined to see it through to its end no matter how much my paranoia tries to deter me. I'm also scared to death of quitting my secure job with Papa John's to go work with Danny. Maybe the top dogs won't like me. Maybe I won't be up to the job because I'm not as in shape as I was ten years ago. Maybe I'll do something stupid and get myself injured. Maybe I'll end up unemployed and will have a hard time finding another job. Maybe I'll make Danny look bad. Maybe, maybe, maybe. My brain drives me insane with all its maybes. The bottom line is that if it does work out then I'll be making a lot more money working with my best friend and doing a type of work I enjoy far more than what I do at Papa Johns. I wouldn't have asked Danny to get my foot in the door if I wasn't sure this was something I really wanted to go for. So, despite the risks, despite the fear...here I go.
Brian has been down the past couple of days so I haven't been able to get a whole lot done. That's cool, though. Visitors from Asheville have become fewer and farther between. Of course, people from the City of Ashes that I'd care to have visit are becoming fewer and farther between.
Planning for the Gemini Wonder Twins Birthday party has been driving me slightly mad. This is the biggest thing I've ever planned, with what looks like around about 50 or so people aiming to show up. It just sometimes amazes me sometimes that I know so many people but I guess the more the merrier, right? Of course, it scared the hell out of me when I threw my birthday party last year, as it was the biggest I'd ever planned up to that point and it was the first I threw since moving to Atlanta. That turned out to be fantastic, aside from one problem person who isn't invited this year and just to be safe I'll have a couple of security goons on hand who're paid to deal with that sort of crap for me. I just have to keep reminding myself that I know how to throw a good party and my friends are some of the coolest people around. It's going to be fucking awesome. I just need to stop worrying too much about all the things that might go wrong and just concentrate on doing things right. Food, booze, music, awesome people, and gratuitous nudity. These are all that are needed for a great party and we will have all of those things whether Debra's school check gets here or not. If I have to pawn my cameras after the party to pay my rent because I spent the rent money on the party then so be it. I only turn 30 once and Brenda only turns 21 once. We will never share milestone birthdays like that again.
Sometimes you just have to take a leap of faith. I know that throwing mine and Brenda's birthday party at the Spring4th Center was something I passionately wanted to do and I'm determined to see it through to its end no matter how much my paranoia tries to deter me. I'm also scared to death of quitting my secure job with Papa John's to go work with Danny. Maybe the top dogs won't like me. Maybe I won't be up to the job because I'm not as in shape as I was ten years ago. Maybe I'll do something stupid and get myself injured. Maybe I'll end up unemployed and will have a hard time finding another job. Maybe I'll make Danny look bad. Maybe, maybe, maybe. My brain drives me insane with all its maybes. The bottom line is that if it does work out then I'll be making a lot more money working with my best friend and doing a type of work I enjoy far more than what I do at Papa Johns. I wouldn't have asked Danny to get my foot in the door if I wasn't sure this was something I really wanted to go for. So, despite the risks, despite the fear...here I go.
oryon:
i'll be sure to make a cameo