Hallo,
Since I am late with the blog homeworks I won't do a bunch of blogs in one cause will be HUGE, I will be nice and split it even if i get behind on the homeworks.
Of course I am choosing to answer this one cause Its amazing @rambo @missy thank you so much for the theme, I am actually needing to reavaluate myself and I've been struggling with some old patterns with myself and my mind.
1 - your HEALTH is the only thing that matter to you. Or it's supposed to be.
I've always had health problems that fucked me my whole damn fucking life. Obesity came with lots of body problems. But also bariatric bring another bunch of problems.
I have huge stomach issues involving personal traumas. Everytime I am mad or I cannot resolve an issue I got CRAZY pains on my tummy and even have to go to the hospital.
I would say to myself to take care of it all the time and never forget that I will always have emotional connection between my stomach and my mind.
2- You dont own anything to anyone.
I know that and everytime I go to therapy he makes me realise this more and more, but I still want to embrace and help everyone even when is not my business to do so or even when I end up getting fucked by the situation or the person. This happened more than 10 times in my life in several kinds of ways and that's the whole reason why now I don't have anything for me and my future and I am getting old and still lost as fuck about what to do.
I keep helping others instead of helping myself. Everytime I go in the right path and start to make things for me something happens that prevents me from it and makes me forget my own problems.
I am a fixer, and that's horrible to be honest. No, I don't want to be nice. On the end doesnt help me one little bit.
I blame my grandfather. He is the kindest sould I ever met and he looks exactly like gandalf (without hair and beard lol). He is my biggest example of human being but like me, he is a potato. Always being used by everyone :(
I am just saying this for saying because I was like that 10 years ago, 5 years and I am still like that.
3- Save your money. Stop. Helping. People.
Just that. You will be fucked.
4- Your depression was necessary.
5 years ago I was obese and depressed. I was also married and doing my second degree.
I spend two years going to college just on the classes i had to and sleeping and reading non sense all day. I didnt have any social media except tumblr and I just wanted to much to disappear completely.
My depression bring me thw worse and the best stuff too. The knowledge that I can do anything by myself if I put my mind to it. And that's it. That's the key.
That's me in the worst days ever.
and now:
5- Stop wasting your time in unecessary relationships.
I just dont know why I did that so many times.
Thanks for reading <3
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