Yey bloghomework time @missy @rambo @lyxzen , thank you, ladies!
This question is very complex and deep if you go that way. And since I usually go that way, I spend some days thinking about what is one (or more) things I would never do again.
I have a long list.
- I will never ever by my own choice get in an abusive relationship or a jealous one. Or with someone that follows all Suicide Girls but think that his girlfriend shouldn't be one because only sluts are (yep, heard that one).
- I will never use liquid látex again (probably lying but still, let's pretend i won't), this shit hurts my whole back this week.
- I will never get naked in 0 graus. It was too intense for my taste.
- I will never doubt my own self worth again even when sometimes we tend to compare ourselves working as models. Its hard but possible.
- But actually the most important thing to me right now: I will never get myself involved with selfish people, friends or boyfriend material. This year just prove to me that I tend to trust A LOT in people that in the end were using me for some reason or that their real selves are completely the opposite that what they show me. I NEED to remember this for now on. For my own growth and safety.
In another note, please continue to support my new set, he is going so well (went to the top 3 this month) and I still hope just a little bit this goes FP.
I am trying not to give up, but to be honest is hard. I decided to do one more set this sunday because I changed a lot and I am with a new hair, but most certainly it will be my last. I know that everyone will say "don't give up, you are almost there" and thank you for the constant support and cheer but after 5 sets with so many votes (almost all of them have more than 2k, only one its += 1900) and so many hours not giving up, it's just not good for me, to maintain hope. I will stay here of course. I love the community, this is sincere. Everyone knows that I spend hours here, I read all, talk with everyone, I like here, I love here. Love all the friends and jokes :) But the trying and not being my best, is not doing good for my soul.
And It's not the end since I have one set to go out and probably two more that I haven't put on the queue yet.
Thank you for every comment, every like, every inbox message. I loved to receive it, It's being a blast <3
https://www.suicidegirls.com/members/vanp/album/2819939/shine-on-you-crazy-vader/
And oh:
AND SORRY FOR ALWAYS DOING LONG BLOGS HAHA.
Possibly another set to go to the queue
