So, here is a thing about me. I huge deal thing.
I've post 2 times about this here, but much in general and just talking, not much pictures or anything more deep.
But I've decided to do a real complete blog about the subject and my changes.
Not because I want some praise, not because I need some form of reassurance or anything. It's because of some personal stuff and because this week Miss Tattoo Week on RJ (brazil) had a similar history and I wanted to share here, because it's a positive place, with positive people and awesome ladies :)
I will try to be direct about it:
Since I've done de bariatric bypass surgery I've done a feminist blog about it. Yes, feminist. Booh!
It's a take on weight loss with health, love, understanting of your real reasons on why you want to change something on yourself and learning the difference on what you really want and what you've been teaching it's "beauty". I don`t EVER post before and after pictures because I think if you put your `fat side` against the `weight loss yey` side you saying that one is better than the other. And It`s not about it. NO.
It took me years to first realize that I don't need to be thin to be pretty, or chubby, or fat, or voluptous. And then to realize that I could be thin because I wanted to and still know that all bodies and shapes can be pretty on their own way. And to understand fully that health doesn`t equate thin at all. To learn and to fully EMBRACE THAT was essential to whom I am.
I won't say much about my struggle on loving myself, my eating disorders, my depression, that's all the bad site of it, If anyone want to talk to me about it, I will be open :)
I decided to do this before and after and to open a `discussion` about it because I`ve received a lot of loving messages about how much my posts, struggles, blog, pictures, helped a little bit someone with something. I don`t want to be a bad advertising for surgery because everyone is different and because it`s not about the weight loss, is about acceptance.
This is me 5 days after my stomach surgery, and then 1 month after my mammoplasty one year later.
And below it's me NOW. RIGHT NOW. On my last set that will be up in a few months and I took 2 weeks ago :)
I've lost 66 kilos. I've made mammoplasty. Then started gym because is good for me and my muscles and now re-start on tight lacing training with corsets, because I like it. Simple as that.
(and yes i've done a lot of tattoos in the last 3 years and yes i've covered my awful fairy :D )
I just want to say something that took me years to realize: I love who I am, who I was and who I am becoming. When we are young and naive we almost always have problems realizing this simple fact: we must love ourselves, that's the most important thing on life and the only thing that you make you fully happy, we are our own first lovers and must be the last :)
