For all my life, whenever I made a mistake, no matter how big or small, my Mom never went with "it's okay we all make mistakes, just be at peace with it & keep moving & try to not repeat it". Instead, she has always searched for anything I did wrong & rubbed it in my face, my mistakes always happen because I LET them happen, there is no random universe.
So I've been working my ass off at work (I work with very high risk mentally ill folks in therapy & the community) with much stress & caught a flu bug being handed around our office clinic.
Mom's response? "You should have been doing more to make your immune system stronger"!
I love her, she a riot, but CHRIST.
I'm sorry I wrote this, its MY fault, EVERYTHING.
Sometimes I listen to Beck's 'Nobodys Fault But My Own' over & over, like some kind of masochistic therapy, beautiful song though.
So I've been working my ass off at work (I work with very high risk mentally ill folks in therapy & the community) with much stress & caught a flu bug being handed around our office clinic.
Mom's response? "You should have been doing more to make your immune system stronger"!
I love her, she a riot, but CHRIST.
I'm sorry I wrote this, its MY fault, EVERYTHING.
Sometimes I listen to Beck's 'Nobodys Fault But My Own' over & over, like some kind of masochistic therapy, beautiful song though.
My mother is a pain in the ass too, but for me, it has always been my father who is overly critical. He never notices my accomplishments or what I do, instead he sees my failures and what I don't do. Oh well. Heres to being an emotional punching bag. :-p
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