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Hey everyone, it's been awhile, I know-but I had some more medical issues to deal with. Just to give everyone a little heads up as to what's been going on with me; over the course of the last several years I had been experiencing some very odd symptoms to which any Dr. I went to had no explanation for. So, they started taking MRI's of my head/brain, because chronic fatigue, headaches and other things were involved. Well, it has finally been definatively determined that I have what is called "Cortical Atrophy". To put it simply, it means that my brain is reducing in size (shrinking, if you will), which they tell me will lead to early onset Alzheimers (for which we all know there is no cure) and of course the inevitable death. What is baffling everyone is that it is happening to someone of my age-normally this is only seen in patients who are usually 70+, but that's my kind of luck-if it's bizzarre enough, guaranteed I'll make the record books and become the test study for something like this.
So, I hope that everyone understands now why I haven't really kept in touch like I enjoy doing. I had to run through the cycle of emotions: shock, pity, depression, confusion and acceptance. So now I'm at the point where I've just decided to forge ahead, I cannot control or change this (there may be a medication to slow it down some, but that would be my best bet. Thankfully it's not progressing rapidly) so all I can do is live every single day as happily as I can, live it to the fullest-like it might be my last.
It's funny how something like this happens and suddenly you just enjoy the simplest things. I had an account a while back on MySpace, but I had closed it-but now in the wake of this new surprise for me, I've realized that I did make quite a few very, very good friends there and I want them back in my life again. So, I reopened my account, and much to my surprise my friends list is growing like wild fire, it feels so good to talk to old friends and catch up.
Well, it's now a little after midnite here and I'm a bit on the tired side, so I'm going to say Good Nite to everyone. But I did want all my friends here to know that I haven't just forgotten you, I've just had alot to deal with over the last month and a half or so, so I'm hoping my lack of communication is forgiven.
I also want to leave you all tonite with the advice that I am now living by: Live Every Day Like It's Your Last, Enjoy Everything You Possibly Can and Most Definately Don't Sweat the Small Stuff. You never know what lies ahead guys-honestly!
Well I love you all and I'll try to keep in touch much more now. And I don't want anyone feeling sorry for me, ok? It's something that happened, why, I don't know, but I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason-so the best thing you could do for me at this point is just take my advice and keep in touch. I love the friends I've made here and want to continue getting to know all of you much better.
Love ya's!