i hate that seeing her fucking username on youtube is enough to make me want to cry three and a half months later.
what is this big secret to getting over someone? do i even have that in me? i feel like i'll be hurt for the rest of my goddamn life, and i hate it. i'm letting all the shit she put me through be enough to make me give up and i can't even help it.
i still dream about her. i still wish i didn't make her go. all the while knowing that i would be loathing myself and her with every minute we stayed together. it isn't worth it to resent someone you love, is it? i can't say i didn't love her, but i can say that loving her made me crazy. the reasons i loved her are iffy, i think sometimes the only reason i loved her was that i loved having someone. that's not a good enough reason to keep someone around, is it? but it's not like there's anyone else, and it's not like there will be any time soon, if ever. i wake up in the late afternoon and my stomach clenches and i ache in places i shouldn't when i remember she's not next to me. i hate everything about this. i hate the way i still feel about her.
what is this big secret to getting over someone? do i even have that in me? i feel like i'll be hurt for the rest of my goddamn life, and i hate it. i'm letting all the shit she put me through be enough to make me give up and i can't even help it.
i still dream about her. i still wish i didn't make her go. all the while knowing that i would be loathing myself and her with every minute we stayed together. it isn't worth it to resent someone you love, is it? i can't say i didn't love her, but i can say that loving her made me crazy. the reasons i loved her are iffy, i think sometimes the only reason i loved her was that i loved having someone. that's not a good enough reason to keep someone around, is it? but it's not like there's anyone else, and it's not like there will be any time soon, if ever. i wake up in the late afternoon and my stomach clenches and i ache in places i shouldn't when i remember she's not next to me. i hate everything about this. i hate the way i still feel about her.
strider57:
Well, if you could find the secret to getting over someone you loved, bottle and sell it, you'd be rich! Truth is, time is the only thing that makes the situation any better, and I understand how much that sucks! However, with time you will gain a clearer perspective and you will get past this.