vampiress

Hey everyone. I have picked a strange time to update as I am feeling extremely down, and I'm sure none of you want to put up with my sinister mood right now.

I think I have just broken up with my partner. A lot of people would be like "Well, you're only 19, what the hell do you know about loving someone?" but I do. Drew and I had been together for over 2 and a half years. He has been my first 'real' boyfriend. (opposed to those cardboard cut-outs of Johnny Depp! Just kidding!)

I feel so lonely and down, but I know I could someone else, but it's not about that. I don't really want anyone else, I just wish things could have been better between us two. I feel like I am getting absolutely nothing emotionally out of this relationship, and I need to feel loved and safe more than I need sex.

Last night Drew knocked on my window at 4am (I went to bed at 1am) and he had driven 15 minutes over to my house just to see me. He said he wanted to "sleep with me". I don't know whether he meant sex or not, but he tried to have sex with me and then I felt completely used.

Meh, I don't know what to do...just leave me some nice comments, and hopefully I'll feel better soon.