I just can't wait until i get out of Iraq, i don't think i will ever be the same again after all what i have gone through this time around, it happened for while when i got back the first time, but this time i have seen, suffered, experienced way more then i did the first time around.
I can't explain the way i feel towards people, is some kind of distrust, not only to people here, but to everyone, even my family and friends, i hope this is all gone by the time i get back and i go to see my girlfriend. We are talking about getting married when i'm there so hopefully that will change the way i feel right now.
Iraq is still boring, nothing to do but hope we don't get blown up and i would count the days that i have left in here except that we don't know, i don't understand why they make it such a big fucking secret, don't they know that if we know when we are going back it raises morale because it gives us something to look for? I hate the people who run the military, fucking civilians who have were in the military so they don't know what the hell is going on, i can't wait until my contract is done this time. People have asked why am i thinking of getting out since i will have 12 years in and more then halfway towards retirement, well, the 8 years i would need to retire i know for a fact that i will spend at least 4 in either Iraq or Afganistan, and i don't want that, not when i'n about to start a family.
I can't explain the way i feel towards people, is some kind of distrust, not only to people here, but to everyone, even my family and friends, i hope this is all gone by the time i get back and i go to see my girlfriend. We are talking about getting married when i'm there so hopefully that will change the way i feel right now.
Iraq is still boring, nothing to do but hope we don't get blown up and i would count the days that i have left in here except that we don't know, i don't understand why they make it such a big fucking secret, don't they know that if we know when we are going back it raises morale because it gives us something to look for? I hate the people who run the military, fucking civilians who have were in the military so they don't know what the hell is going on, i can't wait until my contract is done this time. People have asked why am i thinking of getting out since i will have 12 years in and more then halfway towards retirement, well, the 8 years i would need to retire i know for a fact that i will spend at least 4 in either Iraq or Afganistan, and i don't want that, not when i'n about to start a family.
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i have a coworker who feels that everyone should join the service and i tell him i cant devote that many years of my life to something that could send me to war and have me killed.
also im a masochist but not a sadist -so i couldnt inflict that kind of pain on someone else.
be strong.