I've been putting this off for way too long because I haven't had a blog in years and I think I've forgotten how to do it properly.
In fact I'm not entirely sure that I've ever known how to blog properly; my last one was from when I was in high school and looking back at it is embarrassing.
Moving on!
Applying for SG has been a dream of mine since I was about 13.
I was one of the only girls in my high school that listened to the music I listened to and dressed the way I dressed.
In my school I was an oddity; a black haired girl in a sea of stunning blondes.
I dreamed of getting tattoos and piercings, I played Pokemon and listened to boy bands and wore way too much eyeliner.
And, of course, I was picked on for it.
Then a guy in my class showed me Suicide Girls.
Just like that it dawned on me that just because I didn't fit in with everyone else, that didn't mean I was wrong or abnormal.
I will never forget that feeling: the understanding that somewhere, no matter how awkward and uncomfortable in my own skin I was at that stage, people respect and appreciate a 'different' form of beauty.
Of course, it wasn't exactly as simple as that.
It's taken me nearly 8 years and a buttload of obstacles to reach this level of comfort with myself.
Nearly 8 years to realise that yeah, I can be a dork, I can dance around in my bathroom to Backstreet Boys and I can be myself.
There is absolutely nothing wrong with embracing your inner dork and loving yourself for it.
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