It's being thirty and still single, not ever having a fair chance at love. Sure I lost virginity at 19 AFTER having been to Iraq. Yeah, not fun, ladies. Sure I've had two lengthy relationships of eight months and three months, but they both decided it was fair to cheat. Not judging, I just think they could have at least done me the favor of being honest about it and not doing it again. I'm sure those were my fault, because for some reason, I can't get any other women to even talk to me. I know I lack certain social skills. It's called I spent the last decade training to go to war, not try and get in your pants. I'm sorry if that seems undesirable to a woman, to know that a man is willing to protect what is his with his life, and understasnd what a commitment is about. But it's fine though, I suppose I have you, SG. Even if I know that I'll never be able to touch, see, and especially peer into you as you do me. Many days I wonder of I'm destined to just not have anyone for the compassion that I have so been lacking and trying to distract myself from since its not on the table. However, I know pity is like rust, signifies a little classic style, yet certainly not desirable. Please excuse my bow, as I do find it a bit limp myself. It's just, I'm a man who has been on a long journey, hopeful to spend it with a woman like you.
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valan_vicktor:
I want the characteristics of what a woman wants. Not to change for her, But to be able to present a man who is desirable to her, yet also is just as willing to do right by her, as I have wanted to do. Because apparently if you are a black knight who traded his amour for just image, rather than a knight who's amour became charred from battle, then you hold the pearl women desire. I dint want to be bowed to, rather to find someone willing to accept mine when one day I ask upon my knee.
valan_vicktor:
Going back over things, I know a woman's love doesn't validate me, but the lack of it has a way of making a man feel hopeless. Especially when having a woman and childeren were the only things that man has ever cared about above all else. That's it. Some guys have other things they feel are more important in life. Truth is, for life to continue there is nothing more important. Everything else is just facets of time. Not worthless, not unimportant, yet in the end useless details. So how much importance can I put in life when I've known this since a child. Ever heard the song simple man by Leonard Skynard? There is something true to that isn't there? My only point is it sucks being single. It sucks even more to know women have the choice in selection and choose not to include me. I hope it'll happen someday. I understand being married isn't all flowers and rainbows and especially not having kids, But it's a challenge I knew I wanted from the beginning enough to take into account what a woman feels is important and trying his best to be that man. I've seen a lot of women who were friends come and go, to use me as an oasis. Someone to trust when they needed a friend for advice, always worthy to be cried on, but never worthy of a chance. I believe selection is a woman's choice, she carries and gives birth to childeren. It should be her right to reach for me and steal my heart with a kiss. Not the other way around.