So its about 1 [maybe a little after] in the morning and i've been talking to Nicole for hours now, I love catching up with her, especially when we can't sleep! We've been catching up, pisses that we missed eachothers birthdays cause we celebrated with family on the same nights. Talking about the past and such just gets me set on memory lane. I've been viewing old pictures and missing old friends. She promises when she comes home from school we'll catch up like old times. Its funny, this was us November 2005 & December 26, 2005.... some dance for school or something.
Yeah I miss seeing her everyday...
Mmm England trip coming up! Yes Yes right around the corner. I got my passport today. The picture is god awful but I guess it doesn't matter its just a passport. If it gets me out of the country i'm satisfied. Speaking of trips, apparently i'm going to Las Vegas in September! Yeah i'm pretty excited about that. I've never been and you never know who you'll run into. When I was invited I obviously said yes. I'm loving the traveling thing. Very nice.
I've also been listening to a lot of Sarah McLachlan lately... she is still my favorite artist and her music always made me relax and live without holding back. NO holding back emotions no fearing what lies ahead of me just living and accepting and being content with everything. So good. Like now I was looking for an old show to watch so I picked up the muppets. WHO DOESN'T LOVE THE MUPPETS! So i'm watching and Kermit is singing "The Rainbow Connection" and i'm like... Sarah does a cover and its on my iPod... so I listened of course! Ooh and I've been writing more and more poetry lately.. most of it I won't share but here is a simple piece I wrote on my birthday.
"Outlook To Perfection" - 1/29/07
If everything could be measured in toys, smiles, and chocolates
The world would be a playground and children would rule
Sex would be a paradise in a kinky oasis you built for dreaming
I'd be one step closer to moving on and you'd be waiting for me
Friends and enemies would blend together in black and white war
Ripped jeans, vibrant colored high heels, and tattoos would appeal
Sex kittens and coked up baby dolls would fill pharmacies not strip clubs
Music would propel the engines of brains fueled by personal lubricants
My bed would be your new favorite escape and you'd never want to leave
An Iris for your vase, a valentine for the holiday
A friend when you're lonely, A hand for you to hold
A hug for comfort, a heart filled with love
A candle for light & warmth when the world is no longer enough
Dancing naked in the streets, Singing songs with meaning
Painting pictures with secrets; Whispers to keep you entertained
Coffee to push away the yawns, Epic poems for your soul and
Hot sex for your undying pleasure when dreaming isn't enough
If the world were measured by the simple pleasures in life, it'd be paradise
Depressives would throw out their prescriptions and people would open their eyes
They would see the things I've been dying to show you for months
And hearing the things I've held back for years without a single hint of admiration
Pride would color the streets and line up girls for blocks without end
The things you find adorable will be the things you learn to love and for once
Days I spent pretending would be true because at the end of the day
The world is measured by toys, smiles and chocolates and with given fantasies
Happiness will excel because with bribes come convictions and rights go on trial
All this because everyone deserves a good [sugar coated] lie
Ah yes the shit I come up with when I'm alone...I don't know where most of it comes from.. it just comes.
So apparently I like to dance around my house singing at the top of my lungs when I do laundry... something so boring has to eventually become fun.
Yes this is what I've been doing.. laundry and writing... working and sleeping. Being sort of stuck in your house really sucks... it snowed today so i couldn't walk too far. Borrowed a car so i could go to the java hut tonight. I saw maddie that was lovely i miss her so much. So can't wait for my new car. Tax money is coming soon... thank god. I'm torn between saving it for my car or taking some of it with me on my trip. I've been saving and I haven't gotten much yet but grr i'll figure something out. Once I get a new car.. new job. I was asked to apply at a local mall. Maybe I will for the hell of it.. I'm a fairly good people person. Obviously if the lady managing the store asked me too. ;o)
Hmm I think i'm going to run off and make myself some tea! Sleep never wins I swear...
<3
Yeah I miss seeing her everyday...
Mmm England trip coming up! Yes Yes right around the corner. I got my passport today. The picture is god awful but I guess it doesn't matter its just a passport. If it gets me out of the country i'm satisfied. Speaking of trips, apparently i'm going to Las Vegas in September! Yeah i'm pretty excited about that. I've never been and you never know who you'll run into. When I was invited I obviously said yes. I'm loving the traveling thing. Very nice.
I've also been listening to a lot of Sarah McLachlan lately... she is still my favorite artist and her music always made me relax and live without holding back. NO holding back emotions no fearing what lies ahead of me just living and accepting and being content with everything. So good. Like now I was looking for an old show to watch so I picked up the muppets. WHO DOESN'T LOVE THE MUPPETS! So i'm watching and Kermit is singing "The Rainbow Connection" and i'm like... Sarah does a cover and its on my iPod... so I listened of course! Ooh and I've been writing more and more poetry lately.. most of it I won't share but here is a simple piece I wrote on my birthday.
"Outlook To Perfection" - 1/29/07
If everything could be measured in toys, smiles, and chocolates
The world would be a playground and children would rule
Sex would be a paradise in a kinky oasis you built for dreaming
I'd be one step closer to moving on and you'd be waiting for me
Friends and enemies would blend together in black and white war
Ripped jeans, vibrant colored high heels, and tattoos would appeal
Sex kittens and coked up baby dolls would fill pharmacies not strip clubs
Music would propel the engines of brains fueled by personal lubricants
My bed would be your new favorite escape and you'd never want to leave
An Iris for your vase, a valentine for the holiday
A friend when you're lonely, A hand for you to hold
A hug for comfort, a heart filled with love
A candle for light & warmth when the world is no longer enough
Dancing naked in the streets, Singing songs with meaning
Painting pictures with secrets; Whispers to keep you entertained
Coffee to push away the yawns, Epic poems for your soul and
Hot sex for your undying pleasure when dreaming isn't enough
If the world were measured by the simple pleasures in life, it'd be paradise
Depressives would throw out their prescriptions and people would open their eyes
They would see the things I've been dying to show you for months
And hearing the things I've held back for years without a single hint of admiration
Pride would color the streets and line up girls for blocks without end
The things you find adorable will be the things you learn to love and for once
Days I spent pretending would be true because at the end of the day
The world is measured by toys, smiles and chocolates and with given fantasies
Happiness will excel because with bribes come convictions and rights go on trial
All this because everyone deserves a good [sugar coated] lie
Ah yes the shit I come up with when I'm alone...I don't know where most of it comes from.. it just comes.
So apparently I like to dance around my house singing at the top of my lungs when I do laundry... something so boring has to eventually become fun.
Yes this is what I've been doing.. laundry and writing... working and sleeping. Being sort of stuck in your house really sucks... it snowed today so i couldn't walk too far. Borrowed a car so i could go to the java hut tonight. I saw maddie that was lovely i miss her so much. So can't wait for my new car. Tax money is coming soon... thank god. I'm torn between saving it for my car or taking some of it with me on my trip. I've been saving and I haven't gotten much yet but grr i'll figure something out. Once I get a new car.. new job. I was asked to apply at a local mall. Maybe I will for the hell of it.. I'm a fairly good people person. Obviously if the lady managing the store asked me too. ;o)
Hmm I think i'm going to run off and make myself some tea! Sleep never wins I swear...
<3