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Wow shit, its been way too long since i posted on here last...i feel like a stranger on this site now. I dont have ready access to the internet any longer hence the lack of updates and such, i do apoligize, i still love you all!!!
So whats been happening, gosh i dont even know where to start...I broke up with my boyfriend....that was over a month ago now, and suprisingly i have coped okay. Im not going to lie, i have wanted to starve myself into nothingness, but well it just hasnt happened..I have been back training (boxing)...loving it...i am working two jobs...in a night club and a mens clothing store.
Im still studying..
So life...well i dont know..it has its moments...to be honest im not comfortable with my body right now..i feel large..yes large, boring word, but well thats how i feel, well no thats not a feeling, but thats how i perceive myself.Yes, i want to lose weight. I feel like this whole weight game is a never ending one...I feel like i will struggle with this for a long time, a life time...i really just dont know..i dont even know what to say right now..i have a numb mind..its lunchtime and i weighed myself this morning and i wasnt happy and now lunch seems just that little more daunting.
Fuck it, heres some pictures from halloween at work !




Sorry not very exciting here guys, will update some other time when im feeling a little more inspired!

Peace and love xx