Day 5
Still going strong. It was odd last night in the supermarket. I walk past the stand of cigarettes take a look and dont have that intense craving. On the way to work this morning i pull up beside a woman in her car smoking, had no intentions or thoughts myself of wanting to light up.
My anxiety has decreased somewhat, except around eating, and i havent had a pani8c attack in about 3 days !
Todays goal is no exercise, im not sure if i can do it, im thinking if i cant handle it a few weights tonight will suffice and ill take the pooch for a walk after work. But no working out at work, no sit ups/press ups/leg lifts etc. I think i can do it, i mean shit if i can go cold turkey off cigarettes and caffinated drinks i think i can go a few days without exercising.Surely.Right?
Other than that, im feeling pretty okay today, im trying to live more, read more, write more..feel ,see and experience more.
I get to see my best friend today, havent seen her in months![biggrin](https://dz3ixmv6nok8z.cloudfront.net/static/img/emoticons/biggrin.b730b6165809.gif)
Still going strong. It was odd last night in the supermarket. I walk past the stand of cigarettes take a look and dont have that intense craving. On the way to work this morning i pull up beside a woman in her car smoking, had no intentions or thoughts myself of wanting to light up.
My anxiety has decreased somewhat, except around eating, and i havent had a pani8c attack in about 3 days !
Todays goal is no exercise, im not sure if i can do it, im thinking if i cant handle it a few weights tonight will suffice and ill take the pooch for a walk after work. But no working out at work, no sit ups/press ups/leg lifts etc. I think i can do it, i mean shit if i can go cold turkey off cigarettes and caffinated drinks i think i can go a few days without exercising.Surely.Right?
Other than that, im feeling pretty okay today, im trying to live more, read more, write more..feel ,see and experience more.
I get to see my best friend today, havent seen her in months
![biggrin](https://dz3ixmv6nok8z.cloudfront.net/static/img/emoticons/biggrin.b730b6165809.gif)
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and sorry about the funeral... suicide is maybe one of the hardest things to deal with, I think. When someone dies because of illness, or even accident, it just seems a little more acceptable like, "well that's what life decided was right" kind of thing... but when someone kills themself, I think it's harder to wrap your head around.
I don't know. I feel weird talking about it, because I know from experience, and I don't know if it's *right* that I talk about it or not.
But yeah. *pause*