Im a tad drunk, mostly sobered up now though. Boo.
Went out tonight with my family and family friends to this local show the musicians club put on. My brother was involved along with the other members of his band. It was pretty dope. I had 7 vodka and lemonades..it didnt really do shit for the truth. I seem to be able to hold my alcohol just a little too well. Im almost jealous of one of my best mates who gets drunk off about 2 drinks, cheap nights for her.
Ive been thinking back alot to the days when i was sick and in hospital for so long...i hated it..i wanted out so bad,but wanted to be kept in longer, just to prove i was really sick..i never believed i ever was sick enough and still dont.
I dont know when ill truly believe i ever was sick enough, i nearly died..more than once. I was tube fed..my blood pressure and blood sugars were taken on the hour..i nearly passed away on Christmas Eve..i dont remember the night too well...i was there..and well then i wasnt..i woke up and requested icecream..i was shipped half way up the country to receive specialist treatment...i nearly had another heart attack half a year from abusing the crap out of laxatives...how much more is it going to take before i get this..
I feel like i havent succeeded as an anorexic..that i want to fall right back down that path..be thinner..be sicker..god fuck i dont know.
wow, she is insanely beautiful, she actually looks like a doll
Went out tonight with my family and family friends to this local show the musicians club put on. My brother was involved along with the other members of his band. It was pretty dope. I had 7 vodka and lemonades..it didnt really do shit for the truth. I seem to be able to hold my alcohol just a little too well. Im almost jealous of one of my best mates who gets drunk off about 2 drinks, cheap nights for her.
Ive been thinking back alot to the days when i was sick and in hospital for so long...i hated it..i wanted out so bad,but wanted to be kept in longer, just to prove i was really sick..i never believed i ever was sick enough and still dont.
I dont know when ill truly believe i ever was sick enough, i nearly died..more than once. I was tube fed..my blood pressure and blood sugars were taken on the hour..i nearly passed away on Christmas Eve..i dont remember the night too well...i was there..and well then i wasnt..i woke up and requested icecream..i was shipped half way up the country to receive specialist treatment...i nearly had another heart attack half a year from abusing the crap out of laxatives...how much more is it going to take before i get this..
I feel like i havent succeeded as an anorexic..that i want to fall right back down that path..be thinner..be sicker..god fuck i dont know.
wow, she is insanely beautiful, she actually looks like a doll
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bangbangbarbie:
honestly, i think i did.
padre:
It's easier for me to just wank but hopefully one day I can make you sneeze that many times 