Let's have a run down of my week so far:
Monday: happiness! Nathan Fillian, Disney, meeting SGLA people....then crying about leaving and having issues getting my bank card back
Tuesday: Jermaine's car gets towed half an hour before I need to leave for the airport, we get a cab and I specifically ask if he will take a credit card and inform him again once I'm in the cab that is how I will be paying. We end up taking that cab to the towing place because he thinks we can make it in time because he just has to pay them the ridiculous fee they want. Turns out he has lost his registration papers and they won't give him the car without them. Meanwhile, I was sitting in the cab waiting for him just to make sure we will be able to leave but then the driver starts to be rude to me so I want to get out quickly. I try to pay him with my credit card and he says "no, not this" and continues to be rude to me until I have to ask Jermaine for the last bit of cash that he has. The driver gets pissed that he got a dollar for a tip. Well, after we realize that we aren't getting his cat, we call another cab, who refuses to give the flat rate from downtown to the airport. I get to the airport 35 minutes before the flight leaves, and I get shuffled around between 3 different lines by asshole employees until I get to the right one where I try to check in but it won't let me because I'm too late. I have to pick up the phone on the check in kiosk, and a lady with an accent can't understand me and just hangs up on me. I wait in line at a different area and find out that there are no other flights to Pittsburgh on that airline that day. Because I have a test on Wednesday, I absoluely need to get back home that day. I look online and see that there is a flight for $200 with another carrier. When I try to book it, it won't let me because you have to book at least 6 hours in advance. So after about an hour of trying to figure it out, I end up having to buy a ticket at the counter. After the luggage fees I end up spending about $500, the only extra money I have, at all. I have issues in line but thankfully not with security. I tried to eat something but all I could do is stare at it. When I sat down by the gate, I was so dizzy and disoriented, I'm surprised that I could make it to the plane.
Wednesday: School - my favorite teacher has missed a few classes because she has cancer. More classes will be cancelled through the semester. In between classes I try to study, but I'm so exhausted and drained that I just fall asleep. I guess on 80% of the quiz that night. After class, I have to write a lab report, it takes 3 hours.
Thursday: School then the doctor then work. A surprise visit from the district manager! My hair is still blue from vacation because I haven't really had the time or energy to shower, let alone due my hair to a conventional color. He didn't say anything about it. In fact, he didn't say much to me at all, he spent the whole time being buddies with my male co-worker. Apparently I'm not allowed in the boys club.
Friday: Another test that went unstudied for. This was about 95% straight guessing. After class as I am backing out of my spot in the parking lot, some girl
rams right into the back of my car. Luckily, it was only on the bumper, and my father was actually able to pop it right back out for me. So no permanent damage aside from the scratches, which is good since I have Bo money now. That night I made plans to meet this guy that I've been talking to for a month. Everytime we've tried to meet, something tragic happens. But I'm hopeful this time, I'm actually really excited and thinking if it goes well, it may make up for some of the other shit of the week. He tells me he's leaving, so I go and get a table at the place we are getting dinner. And wait. 20 mins goes by and I send him a text, no response. I sent a few more, stayed there for over and hour, called twice, still no response. I finally left after my waiter bought me a pity drink. I sat in my car and had a total melt down. When I got home I got a text from him saying that his car had died and then got hit and that he was at the police station. I don't know when I'll ever be able to actually meet this guy, tonight is the only night I have free for essentially the rest of the month. It's a shame because he's adorable and nerdy and as equally obsessed with Harry Potter as I am. Sigh.
Saturday: I woke up as late as I possibly
could and came into work, with blue hair still. My boss bitched at me for eveything the DM gave him shit about. Oh, and my car was driving weird on my way in. I may have a flat, I didn't check yet because I rushed in here so that I wasn't late.
Aside from all that I feel alone, I've alienated everyone who has tries to be nice to me. I never get to see my kid anymore with my fucking school and work schedule. I'm completely
questioning my major, even though I'm graduating this year and I'm lookin at grad schools. And I looked into how much debt I have, and I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to keep my head above water, especially after I graduate and have to pay back my school loans.
I really don't want to deal with life anymore. I wish I could stay in bed for a month.
Monday: happiness! Nathan Fillian, Disney, meeting SGLA people....then crying about leaving and having issues getting my bank card back
Tuesday: Jermaine's car gets towed half an hour before I need to leave for the airport, we get a cab and I specifically ask if he will take a credit card and inform him again once I'm in the cab that is how I will be paying. We end up taking that cab to the towing place because he thinks we can make it in time because he just has to pay them the ridiculous fee they want. Turns out he has lost his registration papers and they won't give him the car without them. Meanwhile, I was sitting in the cab waiting for him just to make sure we will be able to leave but then the driver starts to be rude to me so I want to get out quickly. I try to pay him with my credit card and he says "no, not this" and continues to be rude to me until I have to ask Jermaine for the last bit of cash that he has. The driver gets pissed that he got a dollar for a tip. Well, after we realize that we aren't getting his cat, we call another cab, who refuses to give the flat rate from downtown to the airport. I get to the airport 35 minutes before the flight leaves, and I get shuffled around between 3 different lines by asshole employees until I get to the right one where I try to check in but it won't let me because I'm too late. I have to pick up the phone on the check in kiosk, and a lady with an accent can't understand me and just hangs up on me. I wait in line at a different area and find out that there are no other flights to Pittsburgh on that airline that day. Because I have a test on Wednesday, I absoluely need to get back home that day. I look online and see that there is a flight for $200 with another carrier. When I try to book it, it won't let me because you have to book at least 6 hours in advance. So after about an hour of trying to figure it out, I end up having to buy a ticket at the counter. After the luggage fees I end up spending about $500, the only extra money I have, at all. I have issues in line but thankfully not with security. I tried to eat something but all I could do is stare at it. When I sat down by the gate, I was so dizzy and disoriented, I'm surprised that I could make it to the plane.
Wednesday: School - my favorite teacher has missed a few classes because she has cancer. More classes will be cancelled through the semester. In between classes I try to study, but I'm so exhausted and drained that I just fall asleep. I guess on 80% of the quiz that night. After class, I have to write a lab report, it takes 3 hours.
Thursday: School then the doctor then work. A surprise visit from the district manager! My hair is still blue from vacation because I haven't really had the time or energy to shower, let alone due my hair to a conventional color. He didn't say anything about it. In fact, he didn't say much to me at all, he spent the whole time being buddies with my male co-worker. Apparently I'm not allowed in the boys club.
Friday: Another test that went unstudied for. This was about 95% straight guessing. After class as I am backing out of my spot in the parking lot, some girl
rams right into the back of my car. Luckily, it was only on the bumper, and my father was actually able to pop it right back out for me. So no permanent damage aside from the scratches, which is good since I have Bo money now. That night I made plans to meet this guy that I've been talking to for a month. Everytime we've tried to meet, something tragic happens. But I'm hopeful this time, I'm actually really excited and thinking if it goes well, it may make up for some of the other shit of the week. He tells me he's leaving, so I go and get a table at the place we are getting dinner. And wait. 20 mins goes by and I send him a text, no response. I sent a few more, stayed there for over and hour, called twice, still no response. I finally left after my waiter bought me a pity drink. I sat in my car and had a total melt down. When I got home I got a text from him saying that his car had died and then got hit and that he was at the police station. I don't know when I'll ever be able to actually meet this guy, tonight is the only night I have free for essentially the rest of the month. It's a shame because he's adorable and nerdy and as equally obsessed with Harry Potter as I am. Sigh.
Saturday: I woke up as late as I possibly
could and came into work, with blue hair still. My boss bitched at me for eveything the DM gave him shit about. Oh, and my car was driving weird on my way in. I may have a flat, I didn't check yet because I rushed in here so that I wasn't late.
Aside from all that I feel alone, I've alienated everyone who has tries to be nice to me. I never get to see my kid anymore with my fucking school and work schedule. I'm completely
questioning my major, even though I'm graduating this year and I'm lookin at grad schools. And I looked into how much debt I have, and I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to keep my head above water, especially after I graduate and have to pay back my school loans.
I really don't want to deal with life anymore. I wish I could stay in bed for a month.
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it's like me, sorta in limbo about my old job and sorta into my new one. when i try to spread my time between the 2 i do a 1/2 assed job of both.
i dunno maybe it was just a bad time to go to la? it's done now so you just have to figure out what you've gotta do. being monumentally busy doesn't give you the time to do your best so that's the problem no?
and i'm not saying you don't deserve to have a vacation, you do.
i've taken 1 week off in the past 3 years so i know that feeling.
I can sympathize with how you're feeling.
If you need anything, lemmie know.