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i don't know whats going on with me lately. i feel so indecisive. i want something that i dont have and i cant even place what that thing is. life is so different than i thought it was going to be and i dont like that. why has it been so dark and rainy out this entire week. it depresses me. actually it just makes me realize how depressed i really am. every time i bring up something that bothers me, i'm not trying to gain someone's pity and everyone seems to think that i am. isnt that your job, to make me feel better when im down. i would do it for you. but i forgot, i'm not allowed to be sad.