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i will not explode
i will not explode
i will not explode
i will not explode
i will not explode
i will not explode
i will not explode
i will not explode
i will not explode
i will not explode
i will not explode
i will not explode
i will not explode
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seswhen:

BLAM!



you did.







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meaney:
what about implode? what if you wasted all of your "i will not"'s on the explode? you're up shit creek now, buckeroo.
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i still exist somewhere, i think.
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digdug:
working 7 days a week is NOT HEALTHY!!!!!
g_felix:
Hey kissiemonster,

Hope you can take a break soon and come visit everyone on SuicideGirls!
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fuck...where have i been...
i think it's been a whole month since i was last on the site... it must be my overwhelmingly busy schedule...it must be all the ass massage i've been giving at school lately. this is the first time in a long time that i've had a few hours with nothing to do...except sit around looking at naked girls...heehee...

note to dia:...
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dia:
haha, I didn't notice because my phone was turned off too. Aren't we a coupla responsible types. That and the fact that my Internet was also turned off and then I was working all the time and I had this horrible laryngitis/snot fiesta going on in my pneumothorax. I will theoretically call you tonight, when it's free!

Who is this beautiful boy???

You are no longer black? Dark red is flattering on you, as will be the highlights. You realize you need to come visit me, right sweetheart. How long is it now? No more porn star hair? Pantene stocks just went down.

AND WHERE THE FUCK ARE MY NUDIE SHOTS??? lol...

Meeting cute boys and cute girls and living a crazy life, much too fun, and the ittle ittle is uberwunderbar, but ve discuss in person on the telephone. Glad you finally updated. Everyone was starting to think you were just this big, sucky loser.

*I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

Sorry you have to touch old hairy ass. That's just... *shudder*... not my thing. I hope you get some nice ass sometimes, but frankly, I don't like all the dirt balls that peel off of lubed up asses and then get caught under your fingernails. I would've finished if they'd let me wear latex gloves! But alas, no. Reiki can shove it up my heinie. I'm not about hands on. Glad you are enjoying it (are you?)...
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i never get any emails - whats up with that -

today is my great grandmothers 100th birthday- unfortunately she lives in arizona, i havent talked to her for over a year, and i dont have her phone number, but i'm wishing her love none the less....
she is fucking old.

as is my big sister, whose birthday is tomorrow, not as old as nana...
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fith:
hey girl!
your sister's fabulous. wonderful even.
hung out with her in portland.

you need to update this thing...ya' know?
cypher:
hey. your sister was talkin' bout you on the telephone the other night....
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shit is getting weird. i don't feel like myself. i feel out of my element. unsettled. a wee bit depressed even. i look in the mirror and hardly recognize myself. my insides don't match my outsides. i look like someone else. maybe like someone i used to know, but have long since let go. i think maybe this has spawned from bordem. life left idle....
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cypher:
i understand.
you can get lost in it all, can't you..? the random boring everyday-ness. a person needs some passion, some vitality. love. something.
it's probably just around the corner, though. it always is.
dia:
You're falling prey to the familial curse. You think I don't know exactly what you are talking about?

You read the Bell Jar by Plath yet? Please do so at once if you haven't already.

You also need to get the hell out of Dodge. I can't figure out if you have too many connections tying you in there, or not enough.

Another great book: The Noonday Demon.

Frankly, I would get depressed where you are at too. There's a reason why I never left the house and just read Quantum Physics books all day.
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ok, so the butterflies were saying no more than that i'd forgotten my medication for a couple of days... i hate addiction.

there are yellow roses in my bedroom
they make me feel romantic
i should be in a robe, sipping tea, when from the corner of my eye, i see a stirring body in my bed, ah, the love of my life has woken,...
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user0128018401:
makin' love or animal boinking....
it is definately a tough call....
but i really havent made all that much love frown
i've been in love a couple of times... maybe 4, which is more that some people, but as far as making love, with all that i imagine it to be... well i just dont think i've really done it...
maybe my last boyfriend...there were a few times when i really thought that i could never love anyone more than that, never FEEL more than that...yeah, i guess when it comes down to it... when it's real, it's the most wonderful thing in the world....


and hi suiciety- i have no control over my insane sister, but it looks like maybe your plea for love was answered... i sure hope so...
cypher:
naki neck nummy
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do you ever have butterflies in your tummy - like your falling in love - and then realize that you're not falling in love with anyone - you just have butterflies? yeah so i've had them for hours along with a stupid grin across my face-
what's that about -

shit - i think i'm falling in love with myself again -
i really should...
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solisis:
hey dia, how do you know people won't post crush on your sister just to get to talk to you? I would...maybe i will.....
user0128018401:
solisis - you bitch - crushing on me is satisfying in and of itself without the additional perk for my sisters attention..tongue
but i forgive you - and continue to live in the shadow of a goddess called dia...
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another day, another bored me, un-occupied, still smoking, eating bad food, that at least i can eat, my nephew refuses to talk to me, i must really suck.
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cypher:
the girl playing dia may have already warned you about me, i dunno. maybe not. heh....
i just wanted to say that you seem really really really nice. really.
good girl to show support 4 your sis.
smile
cypher:
why, thankyou for the hug! what a good little naki you are!
yes, i've heard you're quite hot....
dia talks about you a lot.
i obviously haven't seen u...
no profile picture, nothing.
but i do think you seem quite sweet
that will have to be good enough...
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why am i destined to get involved with, and by that i definately mean schtup, guys that leave, and eveytime i'm all "oh, it's cool i don't even really like this guy too much..." and then out of nowhere they're around just long enough to hook me....i can't take it....i'm doing his fucking laundry for fucks sake. and i'm enjoying it! no one, and i...
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dia:
Which one is this?? What a dick! You aren't enjoying doing his laundry, you're enjoying thinking he's enjoying you doing it... which is possibly the case, because what guy doesn't want clean undies to schtup in? Jesus H. girlie, you need to realize that you are a superdiva and men, they should be doing your laundry from Maine or whatever. With a big stupid grin on their big stupid faces, yeah!

What's it take to be a diva? Hi, I'm a diva, love me, adore me, do my laundry beeyatch.

Houseboys rule. We need a matching set. I'll call you... answer the phone! I tried to call you the other night but you were prolly asleep, it was like real early in the morning here and stuff.
dia:
You are so not home, call meeeeeeeeeee on my ceeeeelllllll.

Haha, I'm trying to do laundry right now, but no sane human being has 1000 articles of clothing, just me.
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yes i'm about 7 " taller than my big sister...and about 7" wider than her too! nah, just kiddin' ... but i swear that you would never know we were sisters... we come from opposite ends of the universe, superficially that is...on the inside we're both loony, silly and out of our god damn minds...

And for the record, the permanent record - even though...
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dia:
Thanks for your advice last night, sweetie, I wound up very much needing it shocked !!!! Rawk!

Yes, we are very similar in certain ways. I think we both have the same sense of humour. I think you are nicer then me. And yes, you know you're gorgeous, which is good... I still don't think I am, I am eternally too busy feeling like the ugly duckling between you and mom.
user0128018401:
jesus christus, shut the fuck up with the whole ugly duckling thing...you are out of your goddamn mind, you dont see me posting naked pictures of myself on the internet, mostly becuase no one would want to see my stank ass.... no just kidding, actually its just not my thang...but really get a grip! and you better be about to call me, ya slut-whore!