Yeah, so that happened.

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TL of my past 1,5 years

- manic psychosis

- broke up during that

- panic attacks because I'd become homeless

- depressive psychosis

- lonely in the house (magically fixed that)

- my relationship was abusive

- wrote a book

- wrote an AI

- moved

- renovations of the house

- crashing job market, Twitter dies, world on fire

- lost my job,...
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uruviel2001:
@littlejohn22 thanks! I'm hoping for better days, but for now just photo's and relaxing (no real rush to get a job for a while) ... maybe I'll finally become that documentary film maker :p
uruviel2001:
@fredhincanada Thanks, yeah it's quite something, quite the tale! Thank you for your kindness! 😊

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I have no idea how to bootstrap myself out of this hell hole. Professional help is non existent or vapid. I barely leave the house these days and my only conversations are with myself. It’s my fault, I know, I know don’t deserve happiness, let alone love. But it’s still difficult to accept.
Difficult to accept, yes you are in a death trap, there is...
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headshot:
Everyone deserves happiness and love. There are no exceptions. Desperate acts are committed because of just their lack. If you feel that everything is very bad, you need to contact a specialist immediately. It's better to spend money than to live in hell. And there's nothing worse than being alone at a time like this. Hey, text me DM. I apologize in advance if my reply is delayed. Communication can bring relief, but only therapy and antidepressants can relieve severe depression.
skisby:
I don’t have any answers I’m afraid but I have found stoicism to be helpful.  I’m not joking when I tell you that the Dory quote from Finding Nemo plays constantly in my head -“Just keep swimming”!!  Also this quote -  The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.— RALPH WALDO EMERSON

Thoughts #4

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ugh. I actually know this will be a dreadful failure. But see, I am learning, this need not be a bad thing. Because time, relentlessly, marches forward. And we have no control. We are but little vessels on an endless ocean. With the massive waves, and the endless currents. We are, and that is all.
My philosophy has become one of 'radical acceptance'. No guilt,...
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