i'm so fuckin pissed right now and really wish i could be the type of person that could kill someone, or be ok with no restraining my husband and letting him do what i know he could do. just found out a good friend of mine had something really horrible done to them when they were 15 and i could easily go kill the guy that did it. i would have no problems killing a child molester or rapist with my own bare hands if i could get away with it.
why dont people come to me, they should have know they could have come to me when it happened or any time afterward. I keep telling all of my friends "im here for you if you ever need me" and i know alot of people say it but i really mean it and they should know that. I mean im the person you can call at 3am and be like can you come get me and im there... why do they rely on their parents when they know their parents are self involved useless pieces of shit. I understand you want a mom, but dont screw up your own life tryin to get from them what you never will.
same person is stuck in a bad situation right now and is so scared to do something. same thing im here for you (we are here for you) me and my husband would do anything for them, yet they want to do it on their own, at their own pace. And im sooo scared something bad is gonna happen and they arent going to call me or its gonna be too late. I dont know what to do i dont want to push them too hard and scare them off.
im just so mad and tryin not to show it too much because i dont want my husband to go do anything that would make all of this alot more difficult. Its going to be so hard to be around all of them and act like nothing is going on. And i think if my husband ever sees the guy who hurt my friend he might not kill him but he will probably come close. then i feel so guilty for moving away for 3 years and not being there for my friend, not that im sure i would have done much good but who knows.
well i gotta go try to not think about it for awhile...
why dont people come to me, they should have know they could have come to me when it happened or any time afterward. I keep telling all of my friends "im here for you if you ever need me" and i know alot of people say it but i really mean it and they should know that. I mean im the person you can call at 3am and be like can you come get me and im there... why do they rely on their parents when they know their parents are self involved useless pieces of shit. I understand you want a mom, but dont screw up your own life tryin to get from them what you never will.
same person is stuck in a bad situation right now and is so scared to do something. same thing im here for you (we are here for you) me and my husband would do anything for them, yet they want to do it on their own, at their own pace. And im sooo scared something bad is gonna happen and they arent going to call me or its gonna be too late. I dont know what to do i dont want to push them too hard and scare them off.
im just so mad and tryin not to show it too much because i dont want my husband to go do anything that would make all of this alot more difficult. Its going to be so hard to be around all of them and act like nothing is going on. And i think if my husband ever sees the guy who hurt my friend he might not kill him but he will probably come close. then i feel so guilty for moving away for 3 years and not being there for my friend, not that im sure i would have done much good but who knows.
well i gotta go try to not think about it for awhile...
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girlb0t:
P.S. I know its hard to just stand back and just be there, especially when it's someone you love or care for you want to do everything in your power...it's a hard call, sometimes you have to let people fall and be there to help piece themselves back together...and sometimes someone needs to step in. I guess this person just really needs to open their eyes and realize it's not worth it. But maybe they don't value their self enough...same thing happened to my mom when she was 12, by her own cousin. She told me she lost a lot of self respect, self value. I wish we could prevent things like this, when someone hurts you like that...they have no idea the long-term effect on that person. I wish your friend the best, and i hope they realize their situation, the entirety of it
surlyclown:
Indeed, it's never gets easier watching friends and family fuck up their lives wholesale. And as I get older and hopefully wiser, it's even more obvious. It's hard enough trying to get your own affairs in order. Hang in there. *hug*