Misc Journal Entry #1

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Boddingtons afternoon relief like mist in a hot shower. I share the sun warmed paving stones with the neighborhood animals. Laying on my back in a pool of bright, I observe the nation flag of a spider, its web blowing and flowing between two trees above me. Ebbing. Pulsing. Convulsing. It stands up to much beautiful abuse. So much so that I will have to...
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starlastarlove:
Yes, i agree. and i do the same- start writing and then stop doing it.. later think, i really need to write! doh. hah. but at least you're conscious about it ;)
starlastarlove:
^^^ @upton0goode

3 months off cigarettes...

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Honestly, that about the only positive in my life right now. And my cat loves me. But the financial situation is collapsing and I've applied daily for jobs and I haven't even gotten a call back. It's pretty grim. Depressing. I really don't know what the fuck to do. I don't even play my guitar anymore.

Sorry for nothing but negative right now, but that's...
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spitfire:
Cats will always love you so that's a big plus!!! And that guitar needs some lovins!!! 
upton0goode:
@spitfirexx and @almost_missed You'll both be happy to know I'm making a point to spend some time with the guitar.  Her name is Maggie.  ;)

Big Sur

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Quick update.

Unemployed reality settled in around Xmas when I literally didn't have money to buy gifts for anyone. As much as I hate to admit it, this hammered on my self worth a bit. At the time, still had no idea where rent would come from.

Out of thin air, a side job dropped in my lap. I've been trying to dig my way...
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almost_missed:
Hang in there bro! I have a feeling something big and awesome is coming up for us peeps. We are all fighters if not the existence of the human race wouldn't be around any longer! Don't even think of putting yr little toe back on that path of hopelessness! The survival of the fittest, the weak die fast. Making way for us, the strongest to do how we see fit to shape this world. Fight back brother! Don't give up! :)

KIK

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Anyone use Kik? I just found it on my phone... always looking for other ways to converse with people here... my username is Uptonogoode Add me !! Or tell me how to add you!

almost_missed:
almost_missed here bro!

Walkabout Day 3, Chico to Mt Shasta (October 24)

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Sunday

I'm no good at goodbyes. Linger over coffee and make promises I may not keep. A quick kiss on the lips and a profession of love catch me off guard. Homemade cookies as a going away present say more to me than any words can convey. I still took something intimate as I so often do. Walmart pit stop makes me into a guilty
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rubblerocks:
Great post! Read like poetry.
upton0goode:
@rubblerocks Thanks man!

Walkabout- Day 2, Chico (October 23)

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Saturday

Over caffeinated to the point of nausea. The headache I carry must be from the pack of cigarettes and not the 2 beers. Though my drinking has gone from the heavyweight category to the featherweight one. I'm moving down in class and still getting my ass handed to me. Aging strikes again. I putter around the house whilst my host goes to the memorial...
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Walkabout- Day 1, Santa Cruz to Chico (October 22)

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Friday.

In a hurry without needing to be in a hurry. Self imposed planning crisis. Bored to tears by the first leg of this trip. The Bay Area is beautiful but I've seen it too many times. I don't notice it anymore. Like a neglected girlfriend. 15 cents short at the tollbooth means a disapproving look from the gatekeeper while he dramatically fumbles through an...
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theniesche:
I hate that feeling of over familiarity with a place so that you can't appreciate it any more. So frustrating. I wish there was a selective memory-wiping drug that could make old stuff feel new again. Looking forward to reading more about your trip, i like your level of detail.

On 13 October 2013 at 8:41 PM.

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“Skirting the line of overdoing everything. Airport pickups make me long to run away to anywhere but my present circumstances. And my present circumstances are actually pretty decent. I love the act of running away. I'm an escape artist. My art is in my ever changing present. And if the present doesn't change quick enough for me I force the issue, like holding a 2-7...
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Fuck Work

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So I guess my employer will be surprised tomorrow when I tell him I'm over it and done for good. I've been here before. I can tough out anything, but when I get to the point where I would rather eat a bullet than get in my car and go to work, well, my survival instincts tell me to make a change. And one think...
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upton0goode:
I'll try and uphold my end and make it entertaining for the rest.  That said, let's all hit the road and start a circus.
theniesche:
Cheers man, wise words. I think it's a very brave thing what you're doing, it's not easy to make that kind of financial leap so hats off to you. The road trip sounds great, it's one of the things that makes me very jealous of you Americans. A road trip here in the UK consists of sitting in a fucking traffic jam for 5 hours then being charged an extortionate fee for burger and chips at a service station! Have yourself a great time, looking forward to reading about it.

Saturday

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On 12 October 2013 at 12:45 AM...

“Kitten transport. Money withdrawals. Making good time. Motorcycle accidents. Backtracking devils slide into suburban road rage. Sea fog laces mountain peaks. Sudden turns of flight. Explosion of correspondence. Information station overload. Conversations of fear and it's imagined repurcussions. Touch screen typo hell. Tragedy turns into sex with a flip of the wrist. Overcome with a sudden urge to...
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